The Gnawing Within

There are those who have felt and experienced what it means to be spiritually bankrupt and burned out.

There are those who have felt and experienced what it means to be spiritually bankrupt and burned out.

God takes us through many lessons in life.  His objective is always for our good to manifest His plan in our lives.  God is always looking towards His best for us.

We can never see what we are made of until we are tempted and tested.  Jesus himself was led into the wilderness to be tempted of the devil.

Jesus was LED to BE TEMPTED!  There are seasons of change in our lives that leads us toward growth.

God uses life lessons to temper us and make us refined and defined in how we present him and live our lives in our world.

The LORD allows shakings, whirlwinds, storms of life and manifesting to get to our heart issues.  It is during these times of testing’s that we find out the hidden issues of the heart, and those of whom have gotten caught up in pride, ego, selfish ambitions and the entanglements of this life.  God even tests us and tempers us in His Spirit in silence.

TO BE STILL AND KNOW HE is GOD is a defining revelation.  Many are antsy because of silence and feel that somehow, they are out of the will of God.

There is a gnawing within that surfaces at times when God is defining us.  However, God refines us the most when we yield to the process and not fear the process.

Be still and know He is God!  We will learn to study to be quiet and work with our own hands.  So many truths are taught to us through silence.

Storms have a way of proving the reality of our belief of Christ in all parts of our lives.  Everything we built upward will be challenged by storms as whatever isn’t built correctly will be blown away thus revealing our foundation.

Becoming and being uncomfortable in our current situation is a true sign that God is in the midst to bring change with understanding to strengthen our faith, bringing more stability in our lives in the Spirit.

In my life personally, I have found a sure guarantee of tried, true, and proven lessons that only the Holy Spirit could have taught me.

How many of us would be transparent enough to admit what the most valuable lessons are?

I have found my growth experiences when I fall flat on my back only to look up to the Spirit of God that His grace teaches us.

How many of us get too big for our britches contending that we have it all together?

We have this pseudo mindset that we trusted having purity, good works, but when God begins to deal with us comparing ourselves to HIM we finally realize that in our hearts and minds who we really are in the flesh!

When we truly recognize our pride and the enormous high opinion of ourselves, finally it causes such a revulsion that I abhor myself as a fool.  And only moments prior to that, I thought I was something special, having a high-minded attitude that I think I am some sort of shining jewel representing God before men.

Then when the revelation of our revulsion pierces our soul and mind, we want to sit in dust and ashes as some sort of burned out worthless piece of junk!

True repentance and turning away from such mindsets are mandatory and we cannot avoid it.  However, Jubilee can bring a major change in our lives.  God wants to give us a Jubilee release from our Spiritual bankruptcy.

Read: Leviticus chapter 25

The year of Jubilee, or the year of release, deals with land, property and rights to those matters.  According to Leviticus, slaves and prisoners would be set free, all debts would be forgiven and the mercies of God would be particularly manifest,  (Leviticus 25:8-13 KJV)

In Jubilee everyone that had been indebted was then released from that debt!  They were free and able to start over again by having their land and possessions returned to them and to be free from slavery to begin again!

Wow, what that would mean to many of us today!

There are many changing, moving motives and are all being tested and revealed during this important window of time.

Many with unholy motives and desires seek to take advantage as they see how The LORD is moving by His Spirit.

When there are unholy motives within people, these get a whiff of the true word of The LORD, and they get jealous, envious and seek to gain benefits and ride on that particular anointing.

“But there was a certain man, called Simon, which before time in the same city used sorcery, and bewitched the people of Samaria, giving out that himself was some great one: 10 To whom they all gave heed, from the least to the greatest, saying, This man is the great power of God. 11 And to him they had regard, because that of long time he had bewitched them with sorceries. 12 But when they believed Philip preaching the things concerning the kingdom of God, and the name of Jesus Christ, they were baptized, both men and women. 13 Then Simon himself believed also: and when he was baptized, he continued with Philip, and wondered, beholding the miracles and signs which were done. 14 Now when the apostles which were at Jerusalem heard that Samaria had received the word of God, they sent unto them Peter and John:15 Who, when they were come down, prayed for them, that they might receive the Holy Ghost: 16 (For as yet he was fallen upon none of them: only they were baptized in the name of The LORD Jesus.) 17 Then laid they their hands on them, and they received the Holy Ghost. 18 And when Simon saw that through laying on of the apostles’ hands the Holy Ghost was given, he offered them money, 19 Saying, Give me also this power, that on whomsoever I lay hands, he may receive the Holy Ghost. 20 But Peter said unto him, Thy money perish with thee, because thou hast thought that the gift of God may be purchased with money. 21 Thou hast neither part nor lot in this matter: for thy heart is not right in the sight of God. 22 Repent therefore of this thy wickedness, and pray God, if perhaps the thought of thine heart may be forgiven thee. 23 For I perceive that thou art in the gall of bitterness, and in the bond of iniquity. 24 Then answered Simon, and said, Pray ye to The LORD for me, that none of these things which ye have spoken come upon me,”    Acts 8:9-24 KJV.

Simon the sorcerer realized the power, but his motive and coveted practices revealed being totally the wrong spirit.

We don’t play God but we must realize the labor involved and what it takes to get a pure word from God.  Those who are deceived and sit in favor of the enemy know whom the threats are.

It matters not that you feel you must know more but what really matters is whom you know and you are confident in HIS perfect design and destiny for your life.


In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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Sherry Edwards Mackey Founder of New Beginning Christian Ministries International since February 1990. Authors “Catch Of the Day” a prophetic word in season revealing the heart and mind of God. The gospel must be preached and “published” throughout the whole world before the coming of the Lord. We believe we will witness the greatest out pouring of revival the world has ever seen, empowering many with Holy Ghost Fire causing the great end time harvest to be gathered in.

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