The Torch of a New Day

This has been a very severe season of testing and trying and the objects of the test and trial were being tested too.

This has been a very severe season of testing and trying and the objects of the test and trial were being tested too.

Dying to the flesh is not fun, it is hard!

However, it is the only way that we are made strong that we may rise to newness of life!

It is during these times that we find out new things about ourselves that we can really see what we are capable of, shockingly so!

Satan knows our weakness and he is trying us in all forms, as his desperation is evident to stop us any way he can.

He knows we are understanding more of who we are in Christ and he plans in advance to take us out.  He devises plans in advance for months even years for one moment in time!

The believer who knows who they are in Christ are tested and if we weaken in any small way, and sin, it opens up a crack in our armor and when that happens, the enemy bombards us in that area with all he can muster up because he knows that this is the only way he can get legal authority to attack us when we open that door and sin.

But once we know where we failed we must quickly repent and close that door quickly and tell the devil to go!

So, all of those many plans the devil spent on you are broken in a moment!  Tell the devil to go!  And give the devil no more place in your life!

It is when things seem like your alone and nothing is working right or no one understands, this is when we are tested and tried the most.

We must know even in the darkness when things are foggy to be happy alone with Jesus in following His way.  If we don’t, we can begin to look for other things to partake of and get into big trouble!

Do not let the devil bait you!  The enemy knows your weakness and he will use bait that is especially something you are weak to and he will hook you!

The enemy is an assassin and he is out to suddenly aim at your character to discredit you and ruin your name and life.

Have you noticed major change?  And it appears many of your friends are gone and you are all alone?  That is when the enemy tries and attacks us!

As I was praying, I heard the song from the 1970s by Johnny Nash called “I can see clearly.”

Lyrics  ©Johnny Nash,

“I can see clearly now the rain is gone, I can see all obstacles in my way, gone are the dark clouds that had me blind, it’s gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day, I think I can make it now the pain is gone all of the bad feelings have disappeared, here is the rainbow I’ve been praying for, it’s gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day. Look all around, there’s nothing but blue skies, look straight ahead, there’s nothing but blue skies.”

The LORD wants you to know you came through, you broke through the test and you overcame the trial of your character and he is proud of you!  You said it is written!  Glory to God!

You are emerging from the dark clouds and you are stronger, you are wiser.  You are emerging and you are being shown that you are real.  I can see many emerging from the dark clouds and moving straight ahead towards the bright sunshine.

This is where things are changing as you have passed from death to life and you are growing through these experiences and choose life!

I see you are carrying a torch-lit up for others who are weak to follow the light of God’s anointing who also emerge but are tattered and torn, but these too will see the torch of God’s anointing and be healed and restored from the trial they suffered through.

This has been cycles and seasons of trial, tests, and the things you lost will come around again in time.

You walk in what you have attained!  There have been cycles and patterns for you not to pattern after anymore, “for when a man’s way pleases The LORD he will make even his enemies to be at peace with him.”

You use to pray and you struggled to ask God why can’t I pray, why do I struggle to pray?

God wants you to know at the very thought of prayer and attempts to pray in the darkness, every word was heard.

Though you felt alone and that God did not hear, you were being tested to not trust in your surroundings, but you pray anyway and The LORD your God was testing you for prayer isn’t a feeling, it’s a fact that is spoken or thought towards God.

For thus says The LORD, “I look for one who doesn’t take My presence for granted.  Your personal responsibility is to have clean hands and a pure heart.

I see the wounds of war with scars all over my body, these things are not hidden but in full view. 

These are battle wounds and they speak of history for others to follow behind you too that will learn from your victories and defeats.

The deep places you desired have a heavy price.  These things you have wanted to see are happening.

You have been jealous of other’s relationships when everything I have is yours.  Why do you seek after another’s gift or destiny?

Faithful brother, do not get angry at your prodigal brother who returned with great happiness to My House.

Everything I have is available to you but these who return were lost but they found their way by the torch that opens the way.”

“And he said, A certain man had two sons:  and the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.
And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.
And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.  And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.  And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.
And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father’s have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!
I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee, and am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.
And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.
But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet: and bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry: for this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.
Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.
And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.  And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.
And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him.  And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends: but as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.
And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.  It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found,”
   Luke 15:11-22.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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The Religious Legalist

I have prayed and questioned God today as pertaining to my former religious life that is buried and in the grave.

I have prayed and questioned God today as pertaining to my former religious life that is buried and in the grave.

It is buried true, but there on that tomb is a testimony that The LORD wants me to share.  He wills that I share portions of my former life in hopes to help others who may be in similar places.

God did tell me a long time ago, that He would take everything in my life and turn it around for good and He would use my testimony to help others.

As you read the absolute naked portions of my former life, please don’t judge me, but pray for me and others who read this, who are or were like I was.

Pray that The LORD gives you compassion to wounded souls like I was.

Important!  Balance!  

This isn’t a message for people who only want to get by or pretend.  This message is for people who want to be everything God wants, but they go to the extreme and burn-out in their abilities, becoming religious.

This message isn’t about people who only want fire insurance from hell, or those who only want to do the bare minimum to get by.

I wondered how many of us have ever felt like we’re running in circles chasing our own tail?

How many of us spend enormous amounts of time, effort, and energy doing something for God, but we end up achieving nothing?

How many of us think we are entitled to so much more, but we end up wondering why we cannot get beyond whatever this is?

This process perplexed me and made me feel so vulnerable and weak and I didn’t understand why it kept happening.

This topic troubled me for a number of years, because I had wrong thinking and a wrong belief system.

It wasn’t until the many years of circling around that same mountain, defeated, that I got serious with God as to why this kept happening to me!

I wanted to know what I was doing wrong, and I really did want to know what I was believing, even if it cost me positions and relationships.

I was so upset and desperate that it was at this point when He began showing me the error of my belief system.

Being a go-getter for God and extremely disciplined, I went hard after God to the max for years, even when I ran off on my own accord for God!

However, I couldn’t understand why I ended up in the same place each year!  I kept burning out and it affected me spiritually, emotionally, and physically.

I would hear people say, “I would rather burn-out for God than to just exist in obscurity.”  Which was totally pride.  And in loving people, we want to be totally admired and envied; we want people to love us and think we are great.

Being amongst the legalist extreme in religion, was more regarded than those who pretend and seem to just get by in their faith; even while we’re saying, we are having so much fun!

God never intended that we be fulfilled in life without Him, but He gave us a free will and free choice.

In legalism, we want to affect the world around us, when in actuality we are really driving those we love mad!   I heard these things, “Why don’t you just enjoy your life?”

When I really thought about that, I was perplexed as I didn’t know how to enjoy my life as a legalist, because I had a reputation to keep up and I gave up my life to be this person!

And there were so many laws and demands to remain usable in that twisted world of religion.

I wanted to be a gospel peace maker among the numbers of brethren and especially among denominations.  I preached unity and for people to get along with their differences.

I had a type A personality and based everything and the way I lived on how perfectly I could remain.

I thought at the time that I understood that Christ saved me and delivered me, but inside I saw myself as not good enough, so I had to keep up the standard of all those around me and do all the things required of me.

Even though I loved God, I didn’t really understand the basis of my salvation, and thought I had to keep up, then when I would burn-out, I would see God as a task master and unattainable unless I remain strong in my own power, because he only wanted the best and strongest, like Darwin’s theory of the survival of the fittest.

And to add to the mix, I expected others to seek God with the same fervor I had and I had a very judgmental spirit.

I was able to pull order out of disorder in all sorts of situations in religion.  I was in control and I was needed — at least at the time.  I did what needed to be done, but I was in a race with myself and I was miserable and I could feel each time like I was coming apart.

What is a type A personality?
Definition and meaning:  “Type A personality:  A temperament characterized by excessive ambition, aggression, competitiveness, drive, impatience, need for control, focus on quantity over quality and unrealistic sense of urgency.  It is commonly associated with risk of coronary disease and other stress-related ailments.”    © businessdictionary.com

When I would burn-out physically, I was so full of anxiety and fear because I felt I wasn’t strong enough to prevail.  I felt so weak and out of it that I would not make it to Heaven, because I was not strong enough and didn’t have what it would take.

So many issues stemmed from that including a strong spirit of pride, arrogance, and judgmentalism I had.  Any time I was weak, I condemned myself and beat myself down with self-hatred and self-loathing.

It would take me weeks to recover and I would hear things like grace and mercy and for a time I would believe it, that God accepted me as I was…… but once I was strong again, I would blow it off and go back to my flawed belief system.

Although I believed in the grace and mercy of God, I thought it was predicated on my behavior modification and lifestyle.  I would begin to get a glimpse of the nature and character of God in those down times, but once I was strong again, I embraced my former belief system based on fear.

I have never seen anyone who was strong-armed to the altar through fear or torment, who has remained.

Fear doesn’t save people, love does.  Love keeps us for we are kept by the power of God!

It is through God’s lovingkindness that He leads us to repentance.  God hasn’t given us a spirit of fear, but of power love, and a sound mind and perfect love cast out all fear for fear has torment.

I came to a place of sudden loss of three major happenings in my life all in the same time frame.  I found myself suddenly, when whatever it was within me that gave me strength was depleted and gone!

Suddenly I broke down!  Something within me broke and whatever it was that kept me strong, was suddenly gone and no matter how much I fasted and prayed, I could not get over this.

Something within me broke and I found I had no control over my life anymore.  I had never felt so vulnerable.  I asked for prayer from the Church and people fasted and prayed for me — all to no avail.

I felt I was blinded and did not know my way, led only about by people who then started hating on me, because I wasn’t the strong Sherry they knew.

Then I learned the Church I served in blasted me from the pulpit and told the others to stay away from me, because I was a false prophet!  I was one of their ministers and had been under their authority for three years, totally involved in all portions of that ministry!

The Church and every friend I thought I had, judged me and abandoned me.  I was left alone with no hope.

It felt like they took a sharp knife and stabbed me in the heart and twisted it.  Something broke and was never the same again.

Like having a broken arm without getting it set in alignment, and it has never been the same and that person who was so strong, was no longer was there.

Part of me died never recovered.  I was beyond exhaustion; total exhaustion and I cried all the time —  but little did I know I was on my way to freedom!

In my pursuit of God after these experiences, I learned I had a fear of God that wasn’t according to knowledge, and it caused me to see everything through legalism and religion.

You see, their belief was I needed to be strong and keep on going, or I would not make it into heaven.

Everything was based on performance not the grace and mercy of God and His finished work.  I saw God as an angry God towards humanity, and especially towards me!

After this experience, I could not pray and I felt like I had gone beyond the grace and mercy of God.  I was existing, hurt, wounded, and heading for certain death — I thought.

But oh, The Blood of Jesus!  Oh, the grace and mercy of God!  God was answering my prayers that I wondered about as why I was continually going around in circles.

As you continue to freedom in Christ, don’t let man limit you, because they can’t keep you under their control.

It happens more than you know.  I have had people abandon me just because I wasn’t allowed by God to conform to their agenda.

When you are released, you will be shocked at how much you were under control and the weight will fly off of you!  You will feel it release!

I want you to know straight up, that my desire is to never offend, but I would much rather offend man than God.

People will try to strong-arm us to intimidate, force, control, and to keep us bound to their experience when God has so much more for you.  You don’t need to apologize for being obedient to God!

God sets you free and who knows what He has planned for you! 

You will be free, and may even have a major change into a different career field of ministry!  It’s not over, you have just begun!

It isn’t a demotion, but a promotion into what is needed for each of us to function within The Body of Christ.  What you have attained thus far in God isn’t taken away, for the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.

“For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance,”   Romans 11:29 KJV.

This topic isn’t about people who just want to get by, or about people who pretend to be believers but who bear no fruit of the Spirit.

This topic is for the people who love God, but have been captives of legalism and religion, like me.

I was extreme with God and had never understood God’s grace or mercy, or Christ and His finished work on the cross.

“For he shall have judgment without mercy, that hath shewed no mercy; and mercy rejoiceth against judgment,”   James 2:13 KJV.

If you don’t know who you are, then people will tell you who you are and you will be whom they want you to be, instead of whom God wants you to be.

We must remember, those who compare themselves among themselves are not wise.  So look into the mirror of God’s Word and be whom He wants you to be.

Religion is a return to bondage, for your righteousness is self-motivated by your behaviors.

Religion focuses on the flesh of man.  Christianity focuses on the flesh of the finished work of Christ.

Legalism causes our heart to be hard.  A legalist wants everyone to do it their way, or you are not good enough or they label you as not being a Christian.

It makes the religious group mad when you are not doing what they want, and follow all their rules, especially if God is still blessing you!

A legalist is very intolerant of anyone who doesn’t measure up to his or her standards.

More next time……..

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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It is Written!

Jesus was tempted in all points like we are, but He was perfect and when He was tempted, He resounded, “IT IS WRITTEN….”  

As I prayed, I saw in the spirit an oil derrick and it was being drilled.  Suddenly I saw a gusher breakthrough and it went so high in the sky!

Many of you are like that; like being in that drilling process.  You are seeking God and it feels like you are drilling and pressing in so hard!

But it has been so long and issues so frequent that you have questioned as to why you must go through such adversity.  Some of you have questioned your very salvation.

Many of you have had such opposition that you began to question the validity of your experience with The LORD and have doubted.

Many have said that the battle is over. (Indeed, partially true)  Yes, The LORD Jesus Christ once and for all settled our eternal salvation, but there are false doctrines out there which say we have no battles to contend in this life as a Christian!

We must put on our Armor and carry our Weapon, which is the Word of God!  We must develop through knowing God’s Word —  for the Word of God is our powerful weapon!

This weapon is like a two-edged sword and we must focus on God and focus our mind on where the real battles lie and which weapon, which scripture we must counter-attack with.

Jesus was tempted in all points like we are, but He was perfect and when He was tempted, He resounded, “IT IS WRITTEN….”   (Matthew 4)

The battle is The LORD’s and He goes before us making every crooked path straight!  There are many battles we face in our lives and if the battles were over, why do we need armor and the sword of the Spirit?

Fight against false doctrines and give them no place in your life! (Ephesians 6).  Of course the enemy doesn’t want you to know you have the power to break his strongholds, plots, and schemes!

However, we are learning and becoming strong against the enemy, because of the weight of the resistance we face!  [Resistance builds muscles!]

We are being trained so that our spiritual muscles grows and we become strong and great contenders against the enemy’s plans.

When we resist the demonic winds and fire, we are finding that opposition has actually pushed us closer to The LORD in intimacy and fiery fervency!

Satan does not go after people who are NOT a threat to his agendas.  He goes after those who shall make a difference in this world for God.  Your greatest moments in God come on the heels of great tests and trials.

The LORD will be glorified greatly with HIS end-time Army!  His Army runs through a troop and leaps over walls defeating the plans of darkness!

You shall leap supernaturally over the enemy’s hurdles, as you are above and not beneath, the head and not the tail!

You shall be amazed at how God will manifest himself in your lives.  Nothing is higher than God.

When we come into alignment with Him, all things are possible to them that believe!  When the enemy comes in like a flood, God will use YOU to leap over every conspiracy and plan of darkness!

You are not alone and God is aware of all things in your lives!  Remember, you are that STANDARD against the enemy that God is raising up.

This is your destiny coming to pass beloved!  Just your presence intimidates the devil and his demons as they run in terror when you carry God’s presence!

We must continue to learn who we are in Christ and develop by getting that Word of God within, so we learn to take dominion and a stand wherever our feet take us!

I can see how The LORD is opening our understanding to deeper and greater heights.

I heard this, that The LORD wanted his beloved not to be afraid or dismayed, and that even in all their distractions and unplanned events, The LORD is still on His Throne and He has so many angels watching over you and they are helping you even though you may not feel it or see it.

The LORD wants you to know that HE is with you, even in distractions and events inspired by the enemy to keep you offline, off base, and to make you think you are vulnerable and have lost it!

You have been lassoed and you had to attend those events, but you longed for the Courts of God.

There are others who have lost important relationships, but you cannot control or change another person.

Forgive them!  Release them!  And then let them go.

The LORD knows you had no control over those unplanned events.  Forgive yourself beloved.  Trust The LORD and realize He is for you not against you.

Remember those who left you because of the cause of Christ, that they could not continue with you, because you have The Heart for The Father.

Be encouraged beloved…..

“The Son of man goeth as it is written of him: but woe unto that man by whom the Son of man is betrayed!  it had been good for that man if he had not been born,”   Matthew 26:24 KJV.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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Your Power of Attorney

No matter what and where our destiny lies, God has calculated a plan for us that is affirmed and confirmed by The Will and Word of God!

No matter what and where our destiny lies in The Kingdom, God has calculated an ultimate plan for us that is affirmed and confirmed by The Will and Word of God!

However, it is only conformed into us when we take the third piece of the pie that makes us the whole.

The Holy Spirit is hovering over the land looking for those who receive Jesus as LORD and He comes and abides in us.

When we are in agreement with The Holy Spirit and filled with Him, it is Christ in us the hope of glory!  The enemy cannot stop a believer who knows who they are in Christ!

The enemy’s top calculated plans of events are being revealed.  Even now, as we seek The LORD, we find Him when we seek Him with our whole hearts.

To be on top of the many things that are thrown at us daily, it is mandatory that we must learn to make time and take time, to become still, small, and quiet in our prayer time.

I relish my quiet time in silence.  When I take a hold of me and quiet myself from all the noise, distractions, and the many hindrances that the world pulls at me, I can finally hear Him!

In this day and age of massive amounts of communications, distractions, and temptations, it takes strength of fortitude, and discipline to grab on to your day to be able to hear that still, small voice, and know He is God!

We find Him as we seek Him with our whole heart — and He is not far from those who diligently seek him.

” ‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ saith The LORD, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.  Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.  And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart,’ ”   Jeremiah 29:11-13 KJV.

As the enemy’s plans of events are being revealed; we can know them like marks shown on a map.

It is said that The LORD’s mind is on you for good, but the enemy’s mind is on you to ultimately destroy you anyway he can.  But greater is He Who is in us, than he that is in the world!

There are many plans added by our enemy to keep us too busy so we don’t have time for God.  And these plans may be good ones with well-meaning individuals, but just because there is a need, doesn’t mean we must fill it.

We must keep God first, even when it comes to ministry related business.

God has secret plans and doesn’t give us much information to go on, but expects us to grow and to have faith and trust in God.  With each addition though, we can see perfectly where this conflict strategic goal is!

By Faith, as we align ourselves with The LORD’s will, He will be with us and for us in the earth.  I describe these as marks shown on a map — revealing the areas of turmoil.

For wherever you see and experience turmoil, the enemy is always behind the scenes trying to cause territory to be stolen and for some he does it legally because we forget who we are in Christ.

“The law of The LORD is perfect, converting the soul: the testimony of The LORD is sure, making wise the simple.  The statutes of The LORD are right, rejoicing the heart: the commandment of The LORD is pure, enlightening the eyes,”   Psalms 19:7-8 KJV.

Jesus was tempted in the wilderness as He fasted and prayed and part of the temptation He endured was when Satan presented the entire kingdoms of the world which he would give, if Jesus would fall down and worship him.

Legally, Satan possesses the ground in this world.  But Jesus, the Son of Man, knew who He was, and His identity was focused and understood according to His purpose on earth — yet He was a son and He learned obedience by the things He suffered.

Jesus, the son of man, knew Satan had legal rights to the kingdoms of this world because of Adam’s failure.

“Again, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory of them; and saith unto him, All these things will I give thee, if thou wilt fall down and worship me.  Then saith Jesus unto him, ‘Get thee hence, Satan; for it is written, Thou shalt worship The LORD thy God, and him only shalt thou serve’,”   Matthew 4: 8-10 KJV.

Satan tries so very hard to keep us ignorant and from ever learning the truth:  Jesus Christ imparted All power and all authority to the Church.

We have that power, the same power that raised Jesus from the dead, abides in the believer.

Satan doesn’t want us to know or develop faith in the written Word of God, nor does he want us to pray and develop a relationship with The LORD.

He knows that if we develop that God-given power, we will be unstoppable and he will lose major territory and souls.

Now the enemy isn’t going down easy, so it is in the battles that stretch our faith in God’s Word.

The enemy bombards us with doubt and unbelief to keep us from our inheritance in Christ.  We have this power in earthen vessels with God in our prayer life and also, we learn decrees and declarations by the spoken Word.  The Word is forever settled in heaven.

In this present darkness, a light is shining and it is God’s destiny arising in His Remnant, who carry the legal Power of Attorney given to us by our LORD Jesus Christ who is our advocate, the one who stands in-between accusations the devil tries to serve against us, to keep us bound by lies.

Jesus gave us Power of Attorney to decree.  That gives us the powers and the rights that Jesus has, to act on His Behalf in our ever-increasing territory and in all the world, including harvesting souls for The Kingdom and the financial matters that accomplish it.  God finances His Ministries!

“And Jesus came and spake unto them, saying, All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth.  Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I AM with you always, even unto the end of the world,”   Matthew 28:18-20 KJV.

Amen.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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If I Hold My Peace

A meeting on the Taming of the Tongue made a great impact on me and I immediately could see myself in those words taught.

Back in the 1980s, I and my family had attended several Churches for a number of years.

Being in the military, we moved quite often, so this particular Church I speak of I was there over three years.

I had served three Churches prior to being licensed and ordained into the ministry.  The third Church I and my family attended was a very pivotal Church in my growth and releasing me into the leadership in that particular Church.

I attended as many meetings as I could and usually was involved five days a week in various groups and was used in prayer meetings, women’s meetings, teaching, prophesying, and putting it strongly, I was involved!

I was so hungry for God and hungry to learn all I could absorb.  I remember being in a ladies’ meeting on Wednesday and the subject that was taught was, The Taming of the Tongue.

That meeting made a great impact on me and I immediately could see myself in those words so I decided that a fast was in order.

In my desperation to get control of my tongue, I started a fast for as long as it would take.  I know this may sound funny to some, but in taking control of my tongue I put duct tape on my mouth and kept it there until after five p.m. when my husband got home.

However, I continued fasting, keeping my tongue under control for two whole weeks.  I only spoke after five p.m. if absolutely necessary and of course in taking care and guiding my small children.

I had so many phone calls I could not answer, and my husband at the time was continuing to berate me and harass me continually about anything and everything, but in all of this, I refrained from retaliation and took it in silence.

In prayer, I asked God to help me.  I was so serious about learning how to hold my peace so I continued, but it wasn’t easy at all.  It was so hard!  I felt so abused and beaten down inside, and weary with all the accusations and harassment of my husband.

The second Sunday in the two weeks fast I, my husband, and three children were getting ready for Church when all hell was in my house.

My husband ranted and raved like a possessed man against me.  I held my tongue and peace.  On our way to Church, I held on to God with all my heart and refrained from reacting to his curses, abuse, and harassment.

When we finally arrived, we took our seats and I was so beaten down that I couldn’t even praise The LORD.  I sat before The LORD and just wept.

On our way home, he was still harassing me and belittling me, making me feel so bad and all I could do was cry and talk to God to help me.

Once we got home and I changed clothes, I went to prepare our lunch while he continued to provoke me.

But on this day I could feel anger building up inside me.  I couldn’t worship God at Church nor have peace in my home and I felt like my nerves and reserves were swiftly going away.

Well, he said all sorts of ugly things and criticized what I fixed for lunch and then I lost it!  It was like I was a cornered animal that lashes out.

I thrashed out big time, calling him all sorts of names and words I won’t say.  I promptly left for my bedroom, but as I went I knew I had sinned, as the scripture came to my mind, “let not the sun go down on your wrath, neither give place to the devil.”

“Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: neither give place to the devil,”   Ephesians 4:26-27 KJV.

Well, as I laid on my bed upset, I knew where that scripture was, so I turned to another part of the Bible to avoid it, because I didn’t want to hear that scripture, nor read it.

But then my eyes landed on another passage of scripture as I laid upon my bed crying.

“Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your own heart upon your bed, and be still.  Selah,”   Psalm 4:4 KJV.

As I laid there not wanting to hear it, I asked God why is was that I had to be strong, while he gets away with everything!   It was all about my rights!

But what we need is God’s rights and His right way!

All I could hear was that I needed to go to him and ask for forgiveness and do it that night.  Well, I rebelled and I hung on to that anger I had towards him that night.

When I woke up on Monday morning for prayer at 5 a.m., I began to pray and The Holy Spirit immediately told me, “I will not talk to you until you ask for his forgiveness.”

I always hunger to hear God’s voice and I had to hear now.  So there was no option, I had to obey because I had to hear The LORD!

As my husband was getting ready for work, he was stomping through the house in a demonic fury.  When he stomped into the kitchen I could feel his anger, but I yielded to The Holy Spirit and said to him, “I am sorry for all I said.”

Then he promptly told me, “You should be!”  I gritted my teeth not to speak and said to The LORD, okay I did what you said, now it’s your turn.

As my husband stomped through the house in anger and prepared to leave for work, The Holy Spirit told me, “His truck won’t start, and your car won’t start either.”

I sat on the couch and listened as he walked out the door.  Sure enough, his truck would not start, then he left the truck and attempted to take my car and it wouldn’t start either.

As he walked back in the house, he looked bewildered and told me his truck would not start either, neither would my car.  I told him I know.  In shock he said how did you know?

I told him what The Holy Spirit said and that he needed to deal with these issues and repent before God.  In shock, he sat down across from me in a chair and closed his eyes.

While he was silent and I sat and prayed, the anointing came strong on my left hand — like lightning — and The Holy Spirit said, “Tell your husband to stand up in the middle of the room, put his hands up in surrender to Me — then you are to put this hand on his head.”

This was a hard thing to say, because of his strong pride and I resisted for some moments.

I had to obey because The Holy Spirit was so strong on me.  I told him what The Holy Spirit said and shockingly, he willingly and immediately stood up in the middle of the room and he put his arms up and stood there with his eyes closed.

Then I got up and laid my hand on his head and immediately he fell backward and was out on the living room floor!

He was out for a long time.  When he finally was able to get up, the devil was defeated and there was peace between us and his attitude totally changed.

What a revelation that was to me and that experience has forever branded my heart!

It is so true, we must forgive speedily so that God can work for us.  Many times, we don’t realize how we hinder our own prayers by getting in God’s way and we cancel out our words and curse our own lives because we fight our own battles.

I learned a valuable lesson when I hold my peace and let The LORD fight my battles, victory shall be won.

We must learn to get out of the way.

I heard something I never ever heard before, The Holy Spirit said, “Unless you forgive him, release him and let him go, I cannot work in your situations for your good.  And because you fight your own battles, it ties my hands to fight for you.”

Well, at times I am reminded of this experience at how The LORD “vindicated” me when I chose to do it God’s way.

It will work for you too if you work it, and God will turn everything around for your good because you love God and are called according to his purpose.  Amen?  Amen!

“Behold, we put bits in the horses’ mouths, that they may obey us; and we turn about their whole body.
Behold also the ships, which though they be so great, and are driven of fierce winds, yet are they turned about with a very small helm, whithersoever the governor listeth.
Even so the tongue is a little member, and boasteth great things. Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth!
And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell.
For every kind of beasts, and of birds, and of serpents, and of things in the sea, is tamed, and hath been tamed of mankind: but the tongue can no man tame; it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.
Therewith bless we God, even the Father; and therewith curse we men, which are made after the similitude of God.
Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be.
Doth a fountain send forth at the same place sweet water and bitter?
Can the fig tree, my brethren, bear olive berries? either a vine, figs? so can no fountain both yield salt water and fresh,”
   James 3:3-12 KJV.

“If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man’s religion is vain,”   James 1:26 KJV.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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Tried by the Word

We have found opposition has actually pushed us closer to The LORD in desperation, in intimacy, and in fiery fervency!

We are learning and becoming strong against the enemy, because of the weights of resistance!

We have found opposition has actually pushed us closer to The LORD in desperation, in intimacy, and in fiery fervency!

Satan plots and schemes after a person whose destiny is a major challenge to his agenda.  Beloved, remember God is aware of all of it and allows it.

Satan goes after those that are a threat to his agenda.  He goes after those who shall make a difference in this world for The Kingdom of God.

Your greatest moments in God will come on the heels of greatest tests and trials.

You are not alone and God is aware of all things happening in your life!  Remember, you are that STANDARD against the enemy that God is raising up.

This is your destiny coming to pass beloved!  Just your presence intimidates the devil and his demons as they run in terror when you carry God’s presence!

Satan does anything and everything to keep you from your close walk with God in intimacy and prayer.  He sends distractions and hindrances, even necessary things you have to do.

We must learn to take time not make time with God.  Taking time is to aggressively go after where our loyalty lies in God.

When we make time, many issues arise that must be dealt with, but taking that time is stating to God and others that you have had enough!

Enough is enough we are taking back our time and dominion!  I can see through these great trials how The LORD is opening our understanding to deeper and greater heights.

I heard this, that The LORD doesn’t want His People to be afraid or dismayed, even through all their distractions and unplanned and necessary events.

The LORD is still on His throne and he is watching you through it all beloved. He also has many angels watching over you and they are helping you.

The LORD wants you to know that HE is with you even through the many distractions and events divinely inspired by the enemy to keep you offline, off base, and to make you feel so vulnerable since you had to attend those various events in this life.

Before the promise and vision of your destiny shall manifest, you shall be severally tested depending on the weight of authority you shall carry.

When He raises you up to walk in places of leadership in the body you shall not be prideful or full of selfish ambitions but through these events of suffering, you shall be humble, broken, and lowly of heart.

The word of destiny over your life has tried you preparing you to carry greater humility in leading the way.  It was all to prepare you to walk in the responsibility over The LORD’s substance and to walk in his character.

Once the time comes, you shall be released and free to serve The LORD as His ambassador.  He will cause you to triumph over the enemy and lead you to help His people and the nation that bound you with fetters.

You shall see the favor of The LORD as you are released in his strength with great humility as all your suffering was preparing you for position.

Just as Joseph went for years to carry a nation within His belly, he had to suffer.  God’s wisdom made him great and qualified him to rule and reign over all his house.

It is the same for you; Your suffering has prepared you and God’s wisdom shall make you great and you shall see before you an open door, focus above and keep your heart pure and stayed on God he will reward them that diligently seek him.

“Seek The LORD, and his strength: seek his face evermore,”   Psalms 105:4 KJV.

“Moreover he called for a famine upon the land: he brake the whole staff of bread.  He sent a man before them, even Joseph, who was sold for a servant: Whose feet they hurt with fetters: he was laid in iron: Until the time that his word came: the word of The LORD tried him.  The king sent and loosed him; even the ruler of the people, and let him go free.He made him lord of his house, and ruler of all his substance: to bind his princes at his pleasure; and teach his senators wisdom,”   Psalm 105:16-22 KJV.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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Going Around in Circles – Pt.2

I have wondered how many of us have ever felt like we’re running in circles, like a cat or dog chasing its own tail?

 See also Part 1

 

I have wondered how many of us have ever felt like we’re running in circles, like a cat or dog chasing its own tail?

Another illustration comes to mind; how many of us run “like” the hamsters’ wheel while in the cage; bound to its circumstances and limitations going nowhere.

How many of us spend enormous amounts of time and energy doing something, but we end up achieving nothing?

In prayer, I saw myself looking out of a car window in a relatively fast-moving vehicle.  In this vision, I was focusing on the right-side window.

I knew there were trees, sky, and colors, but my focus through the window was a blur to me.  I knew that many things were happening all at the same time as a person perceived their space differently compared to mine.

As the other passengers and the driver of the vehicle were looking ahead and talking and laughing although I couldn’t make out their words.  But in short, there were so many situations happening all at the same time in that vehicle.

I had a greater awareness of the Spirit and my surroundings that I had never realized.

The vehicle in this vision represents a ministry, the other passengers were talking and enjoying time together as we were moving in the midst of many things in our busy lives.

Sometimes we fail to comprehend that when we are too close to something we are involved in; it is like the old saying, we are too close to the forest to see the trees.”

Sometimes we need to stand back and reflect on our thoughts and actions and why we do what we do.

How much more does The LORD have in store for us!  In His desire, he delights when His children wonder in amazement and remain star eyed in innocence as our whole being clings to our childlike delights with our Creator, Abba.

Learning and having a greater awareness of His presence is a joy unspeakable and full of glory, were but hard to be uttered.

Abba God takes great delight in enjoying His children and lingers in their pure love for Him realizing that they chose Him not by coercion or fear but by their own free choice and will!

Love conquers, love breaks down walls, love shatters the wounds to get to the heart of a child within each of us.  Abba will move heaven, earth, and hell out of the way for His beloved children. His desire is that we come to know His amazing love as He is known.

God is love and everyone that truly loves is born of God and knows God.  In our limited understanding and existence, it is hard to fathom why the creator of the universe and beyond, would want to be bothered with such wayward children.

When we come to understand the simplicity of His love and how He made and designed us individually in His image, it is truly amazing.

Father God so desired that we would choose to know His love and to know the secret of simplicity in His sight.  When we know we are loved by the ultimate, Abba Father, there’s no need for competition, no need to vie for His attention, thinking that one gets more attention than the other.

There is no jealousy, envy, strife, contention, or division; for we all can access him as His children at any time.

In His eye and hand, we are secure. In knowing that He created us for His pleasure and purpose, we have a divine family!

He lovingly makes us understand that we are not misfits anymore!  No one else can fit the place He has for us, but us!  His plan was Love; simple as that.

The simplicity of Christ was twisted by that twisted spirit Satan that fueled the thoughts that we serve a God that deceives us and works us like a taskmaster and that we can never please. With our offering as children, we are simple.

“But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtlety, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ,”   2 Corinthians 11:3 KJV.

There are no measurements to a child for we are forever amazed and humbled to wonderment as to why such majesty would want to know me?  And you?

He didn’t want or desire beings that had to perform for acceptance, nor were we perfected to amuse him.  He isn’t impressed with the wisdom of this age when He is the ancient of days!

For unless we become as children we will not enter The Kingdom of Heaven.

However, we are learning to lean on Jesus more.  Learning to depend as a little child would with Jesus.  This positioning causes us to become strong against the enemy because of the weightiness of His Glory of resistance!

It is not we who live, but Christ in us the hope of Glory!

We have found opposition has actually pushed us closer to The LORD in intimacy and fiery fervency!

We are the temples of The LORD our God and He fills us ‘the temple’ with His glory so that the fullness of His presence resonates.

Satan does not go after people who are NOT a threat to his agenda.  He goes after those who shall make a difference in this world with God.  Your greatest moments in God come on the heels of great tests and trials.

So, we will be one as He and the Father are one.  The goal of unity in the church is an awesome feat!

However, we all in the body of Christ must find our place and purpose so we all can function within the fullness of the Godhead bodily, with His goodness and favor.

Everyone has a purpose!  But we each must find our own path and way to obedience to the faith and by picking up our cross and following Him.

Oh, how HE loves us beloved of God!

“And this I say, lest any man should beguile you with enticing words.  For though I be absent in the flesh, yet am I with you in the spirit, joying and beholding your order, and the steadfastness of your faith in Christ.  As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus The LORD, so walk ye in him: Rooted and built up in him, and established in the faith, as ye have been taught, abounding therein with thanksgiving.  Beware lest any man spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit, after the tradition of men, after the rudiments of the world, and not after Christ.  For in him dwelleth all the fullness of the Godhead bodily. And ye are complete in him, which is the head of all principality and power,”   Colossians 2:4-10 KJV.

See also Part 1

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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