What Is Spiritual Grooming?

Spiritual “grooming” is a form of manipulation and control that takes place when someone who seemingly has authority over people.

“Wherefore I take you to record this day, that I am pure from the blood of all men. For I have not shunned to declare unto you all the counsel of God. Take heed therefore unto yourselves, and to all the flock, over the which the Holy Ghost hath made you overseers, to feed the church of God, which he hath purchased with his own blood. For I know this, that after my departing shall grievous wolves enter in among you, not sparing the flock. Also, of your own selves shall men arise, speaking perverse things, to draw away disciples after them. Therefore watch, and remember, that by the space of three years I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears.” Acts 20:26-30 KJV

God Wants to Expose What Spiritual Grooming Is….

Spiritual “grooming” is a form of manipulation and control that takes place when someone who seemingly has authority (their own authority not God’s) over people.

These manipulators lead you into doing something or performing an action you would not normally do, and you find it very uneasy and uncomfortable.

Then if you feel pressured and uncomfortable about it and wish to not do it, then you will be made to feel that you are rebellious and disobedient to the man or woman of God!

Word Check : Does not The Word of God say, “Out of the mouth of two or three witnesses shall every word be established?” (2 Corinthians 13:1)

Would it make sense that if God expected you to do what a spiritual leader said, would not God confirm it to you first?

You no longer answer a priest, prophet, pastor, bishop, apostle, or a title of doctor in the front of a title, or whatever they say they are.

You answer to God first and foremost. You do not follow them. Paul said, “Follow me as I follow Christ.” (i Corinthians 11:1)

A Spiritual Groomer is a deceiver, who also manipulates and withholds approval of you if you resist something that they want from you, when you are not comfortable with the act.

The goal of these manipulative people is to break down your own supernatural resistance and brain God gave you, so they gain personal advantages in your life. Put NO trust in man!

This Is a Very Scary Time to Be Alive and Not Know the Truth in the Scriptures

True men and women of God speak for Him. False men and women, who claim they are God’s ministers, speak and do what will ultimately be best for themselves.

They promote their own causes, and they cause divisiveness with those they have trapped in their web of deceit.

For example, I have even seen where false ministers cause division between marriages, for example, and they demand loyalty of them regardless of the contention they cause in their home, because the false ministers make themselves God’s equivalent.

They want you under their influence. They want you and everything that ‘YOU’ means!

“Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.” 1 John 4:1.

Those who operate under a false ministry, appeal to your needs, and once they meet those needs, you are now obligated to them.

Once they invest in you, their motive in meeting temporal needs, is to meet that leader’s objective; which is to become part of them and their brand of Christianity, so they can control and manipulate you into serving them, instead of serving Christ freely.

“How you are fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! How you are cut down to the ground, you who weakened the nations! For you have said in your heart: ‘I will ascend into heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God; I will also sit on the mount of the congregation on the farthest sides. of the north, I will ascend above the heights of the clouds, I will be like the Most High.” Isaiah 14:12-14 KJV.

God is raising up truth and fruit producers; people who are uncompromisingly right with their words and actions. However, what makes them different is their great transparency, integrity, and honesty before The Body of Christ, and if need be, the world.

Important Point : When these precious truth producers miss it, they are quick to repent to The Body. If there are none who repent, that is your warning to get out of that place!

There are many who run to and fro, who major on titles and lofty positions in Church and religious organizations, announcing “I am Prophet so and so”, and “I am Apostle that”.

They also demand that you call them by these titles too! Like “Bishop this” and “Scribe that.”

They purchase lofty titles even in magazines, internet and television, they have said, “I will ascend the mountain into heaven and exalt myself and my Throne of Authority!”

Beloved of God, They Will Bewitch You!

“O foolish Galatians, who hath bewitched you, that ye should not obey the truth, before whose eyes Jesus Christ hath been evidently set forth, crucified among you?” Galatians 3:1 KJV

These deceivers say that God promoted them to high levels of religious prominence, even in some spirit filled organizations.

They are even found among non-denominational spirit filled assemblies and found on Christian television, having multitudes of videos without end.

Those who promote themselves do not realize that every word they speak or write, is being judged by God Almighty.

These pride-filled, head-stomping, title-seeking, ladder-climbing, pew-jumping deceivers will find out there is nothing spirit-filled at the top of man’s pursuits, except for ministry organizations that are led and full of evil spirits.

Serving Christ and His people has nothing to do with anything like a political campaign to win the lofty seats in towers and castle walls.

Obtaining positions in religious Church organizations and businesses is a dog-eat-dog world. This is not the way that The Church of The Living God began, nor how it is now or will end!

Being an apostle, prophet, or any type of leader in the Church is a life of loving servitude. As we mature, we must find the way of laying down our life, the way Jesus laid down His Life for His Friends.

The true Church of Jesus Christ is a spirit-fed; spirit-led life of surrender to the Cross, as we pick it up daily.

We must take ownership of our condition and the words and oaths and the effects of what they have done in our lives. Until we admit our sin and take ownership of our condition, we can never be set free!

Own your words and be responsible and accountable with them. If you say you are going to do something, you better back up your words with your life and actions, or no one will believe you!

Living this way will always cause a superficial life of skimming the surface with people and there will be no lasting fruit. Your ministry will never go further than those limits because we live a life of words.

Stick to your words and back them up with your life, or you will never be taken seriously. Chicken scratching, trying to be the early bird with the worm, not realizing you cannot fly and you are stuck in the limits of the coop.

With the Eagle, it is not so, because when we learn to mount up in prayer, worship, and study and we will soar on the wings of the wind of The Word of God!

If we don’t back up our word and live a life of integrity, honesty and loyalty. we will live superficial lives.

If our word is not our bond, no one can trust us. When we sign an agreement that we will pay so much for a service or item, and we don’t pay it, no creditor can trust us. What is worse, is God cannot trust us.

Important Note : I cannot, nor can you, help anyone if they think they know everything. I can only do what The LORD says, and once I have done everything He said, my job is over.

I am not responsible if the person rebels, The LORD removes me from that situation.

Our conversations or WORDS, not only speak, but are written in the way we present ourselves.

We also speak with our body language, mannerisms, and experiences. It is The Will of God to be holy with every word and in all our conversations dealing with mankind, business, and the world.

Important Note : When truth producers miss it, they are quick to repent to The Body. If there is supposedly leadership and they sin, make mistakes and blunders and never publicly repent, that is a sure sign of the timing with the warning to get out of that place! It will not get any better!

As I close, the things I have written are things I have experienced in my life personally and I am not writing about some theory, or some schools teaching or book, or someone else’s experience.

My teaching and writing came directly from my prayer life as I abide, and I listen, in Jesus’ Name.

And as I study The Word of God, I remain in obedience. For His Word is forever settled in heaven and on earth by Christ Jesus.

Amen and amen!

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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The Eternal Foundation

I will NEVER claim that I have arrived and are perfect in this life, because I am so far from it!

“Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Therefore let us, as many as are mature, have this mind; and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal even this to you. Nevertheless, to the degree that we have already attained, let us walk by the same rule, let us be of the same mind.” Philippians 3:12-16 NKJV.

I will NEVER claim that I have arrived and are perfect in this life, because I am so far from it!

On this side of Glory, there are always new things to learn and more room to grow, because my flesh will never be perfect, not until I have my new body.

“For our citizenship is in heaven, from which we also eagerly wait for the Savior, The LORD Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body that it may be conformed to His glorious body, according to the working by which He is able even to subdue all things to Himself.” Philippians 3:20-21 NKJV.

Beloved let me be explicitly clear, with discernment, we are to judge EVERYTHING by The Spirit, and it must be confirmed by The Word of God, (The Bible) and that is our only standard we are to measure ourselves by and live by.

We must ask The Holy Ghost daily to open His Word so that we rightly understand His Purpose for each of us.

The Bible is a spiritual book, not a textbook, written by men who were anointed by God and moved by The Holy Ghost in revelational knowledge to those men, who were graced to write the Holy Scriptures.

That is why it is so especially important to spend quality time alone with God, so that His Spirit will teach us to know the scriptures for ourselves and to lead and guide us into all truth.

I do not mean to be redundant, but God will not leave me alone about this. We must get beyond this truth; “Never will we ever get to a place where we grow beyond our first love relationship ministry to HIM.”

We cannot rely on our personal corporate prayer team, and even those we trust. He longs for us! Individuality! Not even with spouse! He wants you!

The LORD has not left me alone in this. Our total focused personal one-on-one, fellowship time, is Him!

When we get desperate enough in our circumstances and it brings us to our knees, this is the precise time in prayer to get focused into the intimacy of learning how to stop talking and by making up our mind to be still, small, quiet, and listening to Him. (Bringing our thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ.)

As we come to the end of us and we seek God in our desperation, it is then when our visions, dreams, and purposes are conceived and those in motion that are in danger of being aborted energized!

Do you know that The LORD, The God of Heaven, The King of The Universe and Creator of everything and beyond — wants us to pray and petition Him?

But first, He wants us to make our flesh and our mind to be still and quiet so that when we are truly quiet and still before Him, He can share intimate things, yes, deep things, and secret things with us who are the trustworthy Bride and experience full fellowship with The Author and Finisher of our Faith!

To meet God’s Need is to fulfill that journey everyday, to present our bodies unto Him — holy and blameless, and going way beyond acceptable service going way beyond not only offering acceptable sacrifice which is a “reasonable service.”

I do not know about you, but I am tired of yo-yo Christianity. I want to be full service, full manifestation in that place of intimacy that he can do wonders through me for souls, and I claim this for The Body of Christ.

I asked, “Why LORD, do you want me to keep saying this over and over.”

He told me, “Because most of My People will not do it!”

It is scary, how many people do not have that personal one-on-one time with God. And I do not mean any harm here, but if we are not in intimacy with Christ, who are we intimate with?

Do not get me wrong, I love to pray corporately, but that will never take that intimate time with My Groom.

That is my personal intimate place of fulfillment, which is where He shares secrets only He and I know about, and He impregnates me with Vision and Dreams. For as soon as Zion travailed, she brought forth her children.

No matter where we go in Ministry, our first Ministry is always to Him and never deviate from that place. If I must shut everything down, I will do it.

I can do nothing without Him, and I refuse to minister in the flesh, and Lord forbid, a familiar spirit! If the Spirit is quenched, I will shut everything down in my life and ministry.

Everything comes from that place with him — yes, Prayers, Intercessions and Intimacy. No one can do that for you. You must fall head-over-heels in love with The LORD.

The Holy Bible It is Spiritual Book that must be spiritually discerned. The Bible is our Life Handbook to guide and direct our lives, and that is why we must feast upon it daily.

It is a Spiritual Book that must be spiritually discerned and digested by reason of use. That is why such emphasis is on reading The Bible, praying The Bible, study The Bible, memorize, and live it the best we know how.

As we get a greater spiritual understanding of the Scriptures, they will cause us to be Spiritually enlightened, led, and will guide us into all truth for it is about having a daily moment by moment relationship with Jesus Christ.

You cannot separate The LORD from The Word — for they are one! Never does God, one time, contradict the Scriptures!

“But solid food belongs to those who are of full age, that is, those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil.” Hebrews 5:14 NKJV.

It does not matter how spiritual an experience is, or how real a manifestation is, or how there are bits and pieces of The Word mingled through their messages, (mixture of truth and error) we are to rightly divide the word of truth by reason of use our senses are exercise to discern both good and evil.

Heaven and earth will pass away, but His Word will never pass away, and it is of no personal interpretation, so we must ask The Holy Ghost to teach us, for He will lead and guide us into all truth and in all sincerity, we must ask The Holy Ghost if we have believed a lie in darkness, that we ask The LORD to lead us in the way we should go.

We are to measure everything we live, breathe, and do by having an extremely close relationship with The LORD Jesus and not man, or if we lean on man, (1 Kings 18:21) it will pierce our hand and we will begin to lean more on people through our prayer meetings and other assemblies.

There is nothing wrong with assemblies, but we must be so careful to keep God first!

We must learn to lean totally, against that Word and there is nothing wrong with you in questioning things, which is extremely important and that is your right as a child of God and for your protection according to Scripture! You have that right to know; for that is how we learn.

My prayer personally, is that I want to be transparent and candid before The Body of Christ and especially to those I am intricately connected to in ministry.

I have no fear and nothing to hide from, so we should ask when we have questions about things.

I am not saying I am perfect in my flesh and know it all. I know very well that I do not know everything, but in all honesty, integrity, transparency, and loyalty, we must remain with the foundation of God’s Word, because our word is our bond, both in Scripture and it should be with each other. What you see is what you get with me.

We will know when we are not balanced and in God’s order. When this happens to us, it is time to take a break and pull away from the internet and all ministries. Pull away and pay attention to those who matter most to you. God, family, and ministry.

As I close, I want to remind all that “we” must bring our flesh under subjection to the Spirit of God.

And now the ball is in your court! Begin to spend quality private and intimate time with The LORD in your Prayer Closet.

Then once we have properly ministered to The LORD’s needs, then there is the matter of family needs, and then the Ministry to The Body of Christ. That is God’s order.

It matters not how big or small the ministry or mountain may seem in your life; make sure you minister outwardly from that inward flow of The Holy Ghost that we spend in intimacy and fellowship with him.

Ministers make sure as there are those who need care, and for those who want and need Godly Leadership.

People of God, you must realize that there are those who are truly God’s men and women, who truly realize they really love and care for your soul as one that must give an account to God.


In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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Familiarity Breeds Contempt

The LORD lived and knew people and learned to be a carpenter before His earthly ministry ever started.

The LORD lived and knew people and learned to be a carpenter before His earthly ministry ever started.

When He was thirty years old His Ministry began. He was familiar with the feelings we have and all of our infirmities.

Many people never speak about The Son of Man. Jesus experienced every temptation yet without sin.

Jesus knew what it meant to be human as we. Jesus identifies what it is like for us to be part of a personal and familiar family.

The majority did not receive him and His Calling and Purpose — even within his own brothers and sisters.

And something I failed to see in my study was…. where was Joseph? I always wondered about that.

When you are rejected and ignored this Christmas from family and friends, you must realize not all will accept you and they will speak against you.

The best thing you can do is to cast all your cares and family members and lay them on The Altar and give them to God. The best thing we can do is pray for them…. then release them.

Often times when people are too familiar with us, they remember all our mistakes and are sure to judge, because they think they know us.

Remember that Jesus (the Son of Man) too, was not well liked in his family and home town. You’re in good company beloved, and it was true with Jesus, as He couldn’t do many things there in his home town, because of those who knew him and rejected him in unbelief.

Jesus tried to reach his hometown, but the people were too familiar with Him, and He provoked a response that set their teeth on edge and they wanted to kill Him!

He tried to reach them, but the people wanted Him to do the same things He did elsewhere, and He said, “No prophet is ever welcomed in his hometown” and it made the people furious and drove him out to throw him off a cliff. (Luke 4:14-30)

That is contempt to the maximum. God wants us as well to realize we will also experience this in our hometowns and those who are too familiar.

Their plan to throw him down, Jesus simply walked away and escaped.

What made them so angry? Why did Jesus make a lot of people mad?

The people knew He was an apprentice of his father as carpenter, and they saw Him grow up and live, helping His father. So, He was very well known around town and He was ordinary, and His Greatness was kept hidden.

The people thought, “How dare He talk down to us!” When others are familiar with you, people begin to predict your behavior on past acts good or bad, and judge you and marginalize you.

Familiarity, causes a lack of respect and they dismiss and ignore you by their own opinions.

During this Christmas season, realize that you are in good company! If they did it to Jesus they will do it to you.

As you move on after this season, go to where you are accepted, go to wherever you are received and let the dust settle and release your peace everywhere you go and take dominion in the spirit realm, and silence the accuser and bless those you love and those who don’t love you, and forgive and do good and your Father in Heaven will see and honor you for your calm composure in The Name of Jesus!

“And it came to pass, when Jesus had finished these parables, He withdrew from there. And having come into His own region, He was teaching them in their synagogue, so that they are astonished and are saying, “From where came to this One this wisdom and these miraculous powers? Is this not the son of the carpenter? Is not His mother called Mary, and His brothers James and Joseph and Simon and Judas? And are not all His sisters with us? Then from where came to this One all these things?”
And they were offended at Him.
But Jesus said to them, “A prophet is not without honor, except in the hometown and in his own household.” And He did not do many mighty works there, because of their unbelief.”
Matthew 13:53-58 KJV


In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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He Is Bringing Us Full Circle

The LORD led me to remind all of us how extremely needful our personal outreach we all have been given in our lives.

I felt this morning The LORD wanted me to remind myself and those of you who know me and follow my ministry.

The LORD led me to remind all of us how extremely needful our personal outreach we all have been given in our lives.

God has used me mightily through the years, but never to the fervency I once had when I was baptized in The Holy Ghost and Fire.

That electrical Fire power surged all through me in such a way that my entire life was changed.

The Baptism of Fire I experienced, was literally heaven on earth and is hard to fully describe, but it forever changed my life. The scriptures say it best,

“His Kingdom come, His Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.” Matthew 6:10.

I had no idea of His Power. I was only told that God still cast out demons and heals the sick and my friend would tell me stories for hours about her parents who were Assemblies of God ministers, things and stories of her own personal life as she got to watch as a child and she continued with God as an adult. How fascinating that God could still do this today.

I was totally ignorant of the Scriptures, but I believed in God, and I believed in Jesus, I was just so perplexed and wondered like a child about all I heard.

My friend was the one who told me about The Holy Ghost Baptism and that it was for me if I wanted it. I had never heard about this before, but I was very curious.

Over the years after being baptized by The Holy Ghost and Fire, I wondered if I had made a mistake in asking for it, since I knew nothing of it until my friend introduced me to the experience in Scripture.

My friend wasn’t pushy, but could tell I was interested and hungry.

At the time it was 1984, and it wasn’t long after the birth of my baby girl and I knew my husband was going TDY [Temporary Duty] to a remote base and would be gone for several days with the aircraft.

Our family had been going to Church on base faithfully and that is where we met my friend and her family. They invited us to a Church of God Christian Serviceman Center Mission, based out of Cleveland Tennessee.

I did not know God could be so real, nor did I know the raw Power of God. My friend encouraged me to ask God if this Baptism of Fire was something he wanted me to have, and she suggested that I give up a few meals and fast giving time to prayer as I always did with more fervency and more study of God’s Word concerning The Holy Ghost.

I had Bibles, dictionaries, Bible encyclopedias, and concordances out all around me and I was studying and seeking the truth about The Baptism of Fire.

My three children were young, and I was up early taking care of their needs. Every spare moment of time I had while my husband was gone TDY, I continued to feed on God’s Word.

I questioned God if this was literally something He wanted for me. Even though I was brand-new to learning Scriptures about The Baptism of Fire, I really did not understand what I was asking for.

I remember thinking to myself, “If this is something God has for me, it’s good, and I should ask for it!” and I found scriptural backing.

Not only was I reading the Bible, but I read a small book about the Baptism in The Holy Spirit written by John Osteen.

I have shared this testimony many times, but I especially felt led today to share it again, as I did not understand what the hefty price tag was attached to this gifting and blessing.

I took my friend’s instructions and I began to fast two meals a day, but I took what time I had that was free and dedicated that time to God in prayer and study.

Each day I continued seeking The Baptism of Fire, and on the third day, Friday night, after I got my children down to bed, I went to my living room and began to study and read again.

As God as my only witness, I felt a presence enter my house and I had never felt it before. I will try to describe it…..

Have you ever seen and felt a massive approaching storm coming towards you with great darkness of tempest, the clouds and the lightning and booming thunder coming towards you and then over your house and the feeling of the barometric pressure dropping, and you could feel the awesomeness of that raw power in the atmosphere?

That my dear reader is the same Presence that entered and was in my home!

As this presence entered my home, I was afraid, and I turned on every light in the house, but that presence did not leave.

So, I tried to sit on the couch and read but that feeling was so powerful and raw, that I finally got up and took the book I was reading on the Baptism of The Holy Ghost and Fire I went to my bedroom.

I was covered up and had the book in front of my face and I felt that same Power come into my bedroom, and I heard what an audible voice thunder to me and said, “It’s time!”

I sat straight up in my bed and said, “Time for what?”

As I looked up, and there was a white puffy Cloud in my room! I could see it with my natural eyes!

Because of not understanding what was happening to me, I got out of bed, and I called my friend and asked her if she could please come over.

I told her what happened, and that my heart felt like it was going to be out of my chest as I was going to die.

I kept my eyes closed, but finally opened them and the visible Cloud was gone but the Presence was still there! The Power of that massiveness of His Presence was still there!

I waited in the living room, looking up, trying to keep it together, but truly there was a fear. I do understand it now, for truly The Fear of The LORD is the beginning of Wisdom.

As I waited for my friend, the knock came at my door. I opened the door and my friend came in and she brought the associate pastor’s wife of the Church I went to at the Christian Serviceman Center the Mission.

They both said when they came on the property, they could feel the presence of God and they came in, speaking in tongues.

I sat and told them everything that happened. I kept looking up thinking that Cloud would show up again and we talked into the wee hours of the morning.

I decided I was going to stand up and put my arms up. I’d never done before, and I lifted up my arms to God and I asked him for The Baptism — and The Power touched the tip of my fingers.

I can’t say it was like a heat or oil, or peace feeling. It was more like an electrical current like holding a hot wire without the pain, but you can feel that electrical current inching down my arms and shaking me, and I asked The LORD to stop, and to fill me fully at Church on Sunday night at the Church of God.

To my amazement, that Power began to go out of my arms the way it came in. I was astonished and amazed and begged the women not to leave me — that I was afraid — because of The Presence in my house. They said they had to get home, so they left.

I was left in my home with my children, but the whole time that Power never left. I could not eat, drink, or sleep that whole weekend.

On Sunday, that night, I knew I was going to be baptized with The Holy Spirit and Fire! I was prepared, because that’s what I asked for.

When I got to Church, I went to the second row on the left and as soon as the music started, I began to praise The LORD and I asked Jesus to baptize me with The Holy Ghost and Fire and lifted my arms like I did at home.

The same thing happened, and the invisible Power started touching my fingertips and inched its way down to my shoulders, my head, all the way down, inching all the way down to the tip of my toes!

I shook under The Power of God and was literally like holding a live wire to the point where I could not stand and ended up falling back in my seat and I was gloriously filled with The Holy Spirit and Fire!

You may wonder why I would be afraid of this experience initially, especially in my own home, but everything was so new to me.

I didn’t understand the raw Power I experienced. I did not know what The Presence of The Cloud, thunder, and lightning represented in The Bible.

It wasn’t until a little later that God began to teach me in the Scriptures about the Shekinah Glory and about the Pillar of Fire by night in The Cloud by day, that led Israel out of Egypt.

“And The LORD went before them by day in a pillar of a cloud, to lead them the way; and by night in a pillar of Fire, to give them light; to go by day and night: He took not away the pillar of the cloud by day, nor the pillar of Fire by night, from before the people.” Exodus 13:21-22 KJV emphasis added.

After this experience, I continued to seek God with all my heart with the new reality of who he is and a new hunger and thirst for him with the Fire in my bones that wouldn’t leave me alone!

I remember seeking him and He told me in a Vision that He called me as a Prophet to the Nations.

But because of my background being raised as Baptist, I said I can’t do that because I’m a woman! Little did I know, truly.

“And he said, Hear now my words: If there be a prophet among you, I The LORD will make myself known unto him in a vision, and will speak unto him in a dream. Numbers 12:6 KJV

There are various levels of price tags attached to each gifting that he gives us by Grace. He Graces us to carry His Vision.

Little did I know what it would cost to serve and follow God all the days of my life.

We each have an area of outreach in our lives with our time, resources, and money and He Graces us to reach our areas of influence.

The LORD told us to go to the highways and byways and compel them to come into the Kingdom of God.

“But unto every one of us is given grace according to the measure of the gift of Christ. Wherefore he saith, when he ascended on high, he led captivity captive, and gave gifts unto men.” Ephesians 4:7-8 KJV

Since my loss of my 25-year marriage and my divorce, my move to Virginia from Alaska nearly destroyed my mind and total life.

If you have never felt the loss of your own control over your own body or mind, you cannot possibly understand it, and you don’t want to go there, nor judge anyone that is in that place.

I do thank God for all of those who covered me in prayer during those trying times.

During the years following that time, I wondered if I would ever recover totally. I do believe we have scars that remain and remind us of where we came from to be able to identify with those who cross our path in need of what we carry.

For our deep branded cries and silent torments of our struggle to die to us, so that Christ can rise in us, and cause our heart to ooze out compassion and mercies that cover the anguished soul.

God is bringing us back full circle in every way.

I have always prayed even before I was Holy Ghost filled, I learned to pray.

I remember being invited to Evelyn Christiansen meeting on prayer it was a three-day event. I learned to apply everything that woman said.

I applied it to my life, and I began to get up way before dawn, before my husband and children got up, and I began to put God first in my life.

I began to give God time. I began to take 30 minutes and just talk with Him and intercede for others. Then after I prayed, I would read His Word and to my amazement, He began to talk with me trough His Word, into my spirit.

God is calling me back to the depths that I once had in my Prayer Closet. I believe reader, that you’re not reading this in vain.

Think back. Think back hard for the years and what has taken you away from that depth of spirit you once walked in.

There are so many things that keep us from the fullness of Him. The cares of this life, needs, entertainment, television and all sorts of things, and even people have taken away the depth you once walked in.

You’ve got by on mediocre prayer and praying with others. And there is nothing wrong with praying with others, there’s nothing wrong with prayer in any form, if it is in Jesus’ Name.

But I must warn you.

I want to say that this Word applies to me first. I am first partaker of the fruits, and without realizing it, I have gotten slack.

I have leaned too far on the staff of man, and I’ve learned how to slowly adapt to praying over a meal, praying and jest, praying with others also in Group Prayer, and slowly over time, I came out of the depth of prayer I once had.

I began to see ways to incorporate prayer into people, and not realize how I had come out of my own intimate prayer time on my face in my Prayer Closet.

Although our God is a jealous God, He is our heavenly husband first and foremost, always and forever!

In my beginnings I couldn’t wait to be in my Prayer Closet. I would close the door every chance I got!

Even though married with three children yes, I took care of my family and home. I took care of my husband yes, I did those things — but every smidgen of time I got I was in my Prayer Closet with my Bible.

At that time, I was a lot younger, so now it hurts for me to sit in that Closet, but I am determined I’m going to find that place that I had with God.

If I must find a beanbag…. I will pray in my Closet once again!

I remember hearing things in my Prayer Closet — Visions, Dreams, all sorts of things interpreted in that place where I was sitting there and literally, I got lost in time.

It would seem like mere moments would pass by, and it would be hours on in. I was continually tempted by my children, and tempted by my husband, as they wanted me in there to watch television.

They wanted me to do this and that, and I did my best for them, but you know something? God is first!

God is foremost he is our first husband; He is our first love! If we do not please Him first, everything else is in vain and everything else we make into an idol.

But I want to warn you of the danger when you venture out of your own Prayer Closet and become the status quo.

When you lean upon the staff of man — it will pierce your hand. I know what happened to me.

After I was filled with The Holy Spirit, prayer was something I did, it was my focus after taking care of my children and my husband.

What time I had, I spent in my Closet with my Bible, talking to God and that went on for years. I served in three Churches, and I mean I ‘served’.

My Prayer Closet was my first place of each day, keeping Him first and foremost.

I was licensed and ordained February 1990 and I still had that Closet, that place with God where I always went to.

When we opened the Church that Friday, my Prayer Closet was my focus, that was where all my messages came from and all direction.

My God was always first and we started having services in our home and grew quick. I could no longer keep up with everything that had to be done.

I want you all to notice this danger — especially those of you that have ever been in leadership or who are in leadership at this moment.

Satan will use whomever to pull you away from your pure devotion to Christ and that intimacy with him and that Prayer Closet.

Well-meaning folks came in and helped me but soon, they needed me and instead of helping me, they needed me to be there when I was supposed to be in my Prayer Closet, so I began to lean upon man.

As I began to lean upon the staff of man and soon, I was depending on Group Prayers, Individual Prayers, and I wasn’t going before The LORD in intimacy like I was supposed to, first and foremost as His Bride as His Wife, as I am His first Love, He is my first love.

The danger — Listen!

The danger is in coming out of that place with you and Him.

You must stop now! You must stop and go back to the ancient paths and search for the King of Glory so that the King of Glory of will come in!

But God is warning me that even in success, the engaging and the heights of The Spirit, He wants to take us!

Will it all be in vain if we fail to keep God in that place of intimacy in our prayer life. He wants us and the devotion we once had.

Man, and cares of life, can cause us to fail and move away from our first love devotion in God.

God has had me literally in my Closet, praying, and a return to the Power and strength I once walked in.

He brought me all the way back to when I was called by God, and He baptized me in The Holy Ghost and electrical Fire when His Cloud was in my house!

I had no idea what it meant so it scared me but my only fear is not fulfilling my destiny. But I am returning to the diligence I once had in intimacy with God.

He has used me — limitedly — and blessed me despite me, but I want more. I want God to use me unlimitedly! Without measure!

Dear reader, please consider everything carefully and prayerfully…..

I don’t want Him to sit me down and continue the way it has been, just doing enough and ministering to people in all ways. Yet my own heart needed to come completely back to that first love prayer.

God has shown me where I missed it in my prayer life. It wasn’t that I didn’t pray, I did, but there wasn’t the consistency in being the lay down lover of Jesus is supposed to be in my prayer life.

I know you wouldn’t be reading this if The Spirit of God did not touch your heart, because it is His conviction and it’s painful.

It’s painful to face what we are, and what we had. It is painful, but He is giving us a chance. He is giving us a time in this season to return, and the time is now.

If you hear His Voice, hear what The Spirit is saying to the Churches!

Reader and believer, I know you want everything God has for you!

I want everything God has for me, and I will walk in my destiny, for I am returning to the love of my life!

I want that devotion and closeness I once had. I cannot lean upon others anymore. No, this is a call to come aside and pray and get back to the discipline it took to finally get into the flow of Glory!

I remember King Asa (1 Kings 15, 2 Chronicles 14–16) did good for a time and experienced greatness and victory. He was following in grandfathers’ path, but a prophet came to him and basically warned him not to trust in the good success he had!

There is a danger with success because we lay down our guard and fail to remember where we came from and how it originated.

Because so many things come to us to steal our time from The LORD, busyness for busyness’ sake isn’t God’s Will.

Busyness in Church activities and what we think is God’s will is not God’s Will. Never will God give us demands without having that close relationship with him.

Just because there is a need, doesn’t mean we are to fill it. With man we always have needs, but we need to pray and not be hasty and miss the way.

He has warned me to be aware and to remember how to say “No!” to people in all circumstances that we have no business being in.

God has used me, despite me. My desire is to be the woman He desires, and a woman after His Own Heart. That is, it!

I believe The LORD is preparing and restoring everything, all the way back to when I was Holy Ghost filled!

He is showing me how America — especially in many Churches — are dead.

We’ve got to stand against the current tide of things and go upstream. We’ve got a push against the current of religion. We’ve got a price to the passion of our love for Jesus Christ!

God has shown me that Prophets and other anointed vessels who come out of their Prayer Closets leaning on their lover, must first go to The House of God and raise the dead!

The procedure is an awakening, and can only come when the dead are raised and convicted of their sin and repent, and turn away from their sin and can read The Bible, remain, and stand.

God will use us, despite us!

But just because He uses us, doesn’t mean we are right with God! The scriptures support this fact, that there will be those who prophesy and do mighty works in His Name — who won’t know The LORD — and He will say to them “Depart from me, ye workers of iniquity!” (Matthew 7:23)

I do not ever want to prophecy, teach, preach, or do anything in His Name without having my personal one-on-one time with Him in intimacy, that He requires from me.

We’ve got the goods. We know the plan. We know God has done it before. Can you just imagine now what He will do if we are all grown and ready?

Well… as far as for me? I have no other desire in my life than to serve God, and I will obey.

When He makes things clear to me, I will obey.

I honor and support you. I challenge you, and I encourage you to go onward and upward. God has a mighty Plan, and you have a part!

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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