Against the Grain and Currents

I want you to know that I have never seen or felt such resistance in just gathering together for Prayer for one hour!

Those who truly know me by The Holy Spirit will bear witness to this.

I want you to know that I have never seen or felt such resistance in just gathering together for Prayer for one hour!

I have never to this degree had such an absolute knowing inside me of a greater awareness of The LORD’s season upon us NOW!

Without looking to various modern Church methods, any Church buildings, conference centers, traditions handed down, the denominations and the many various sects of Christendom gathering aside, The Holy Spirit, had from the beginning, cut me against the patterns of man.

A cutting against the grain, a determination as it were, like programed into a fish going upstream against the current would spawn to cause survival from their struggle in life.

Who would have known that going against the grain or going up stream against the current of troubles would become a catalyst and an event for change?

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Saved at a young age but unlearned, it wasn’t until Divine conviction hit my heart on the top floor in my apartment in Italy.

I can attest with evidence that true Supernatural Repentance came upon me and I wept what seemed like buckets of tears all day and night from every sin and iniquity that ever transpired. I knew I was clean and I knew I now had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ!

However, being new and unlearned in Bible knowledge, it wasn’t until 1984 when I was baptized in The Holy Spirit and Fire!

During this same season, I was found speaking in unknown tongues as The Spirit gave the utterance. (*Acts 2:1-4)

There were a lot of things that I didn’t know. But that did not stop The LORD in unfolding the current events that were happening in my life.

I had NO idea what the Shekinah Glory was, neither did I understand what was happening to me with this amazing felt electrical Fire in my body and literally seeing The Glory Cloud in my bedroom!

Imagine seeing a puffy white cloud in your room and not knowing what it was! (*Exodus 40:34)

From then on, I devoured The Word of God (The Bible) hungry for the scriptures, especially about The Holy Spirit and the Fire Baptism! (*Matthew 3:11)

It was during this time that I began to fast and pray often. As I studied, I saw many other people in The Word of God had prayed and fasted for various reasons.

I noticed when I combined Prayer with Fasting that it caused me to become extremely sensitive to The Holy Spirit and The Word of God became really illuminated to me.

The LORD strongly impressed upon me that He wanted to teach me personally. At the time, other people I knew went on to Bible college. The LORD made it clear that He didn’t want me to be trained by any institution.

When I was tempted to compare myself to others, I even tried several times to go to school and he would frustrate my plans every time.

As I went deeper into Prayer and Fasting’s, The LORD began to teach me things I had not heard anywhere else.

Sometime later, I would hear or read of it or see it myself on Christian Television. (Read *Galatians 1-2 about Paul’s calling)

God consistently, all these years, has kept me back away from anything mainstream, till current. Even among rejects, I was the bigger reject.

Even in my calling, The LORD spoke it to me in my prayer closet AND I had no understanding of what it was! However, I responded to it and said, “I can’t do that, I’m a woman!”

Later, He began to show me and teach me about my calling and portions of my destiny.

I was always amazed at everything He said and did, because He was/ is my everything! It did NOT matter how small or insignificant it was, I was always captivated, like a little child in amazement with Him! And in many ways, I am still very childlike and I can now see His Wisdom in keeping me this way.

All of these things that happened to me were without man teaching me.

Look not to man to conform or to a ministry organization. Look to Jesus who is the author and finisher of your Faith.

Don’t heap up many teachers, and preachers without having your own personal time with The LORD, for He is a jealous God!

He will provoke us to react, then to action and if you find things come to the surface that aren’t from The LORD, repent of them, turn away from them, and move forward.

True repentance is turning away from the sin. If you are young and you are from a traditional Church, or a modern type of assembly please begin to seek The LORD yourself while He may be found!

Realize the more you try to fit in, the less you fit anywhere. It wasn’t because of sin or your lack of lack of prayer and fasting, He wants you intimately for himself first!

Later, I did serve in three local churches before I met a very special person in my life. It was through these local experiences in three churches that I learned to interact with His people and those not His people!

I was licensed and ordained February 1, 1990 through Dunamis Power Ministries, Founder/ Overseer Durussia O. Jenkins and Prophet David Gardiner of San Antonio Texas witnessed by and laid hands and released us into full time ministry. After that ordination we started our first church service in our house that 1st Friday 1990 in February in San Antonio Texas.

God had given me the name and the logo in a vision while in my prayer closet. I drew the logo. It was a rainbow with a dove having an olive branch in its beak landing on the name New Beginning Christian Ministries.

The foundational scripture for the ministry was, Philippians 3:13-14,

“Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”

Wow, OJT (On the Job, Training) was amazing! Pastoring two Churches was a learning experience and it was such a special bunch of people whom I loved dearly.

God really knitted our hearts together closely and to this day, I don’t recall a group of people being so connected! It was so much like a literal family and full of Love and The Spirit of God!

The first Church was my training ground for more to come. I remember one day when The LORD asked me something that I will never forget. “Would you be faithful with one?”

I did not understand this till three years later…..

While in San Antonio, out of the blue I received a call from John Osteen’s Church about an Apostle to India, who said he had to come to see me and the ministry.

I never met him or heard of him! Well, I was pretty intimidated! He contacted me, and hearing that he had just ministered in John Osteen’s Church and wanted to come to our House Church, I was so perplexed!

Well, after two phone calls — and me explaining and apologizing — I finally agreed but I told him we were a small House Church.

We wanted to take the man of God out to a nice restaurant, but we didn’t have a lot of money. So, on quick notice, the Church members and I got together and put together 3 tables of fruits, cheeses, veggie dips, finger sandwiches and other foods and deserts.

When he arrived in his beautiful native garb, his eyes were wide open and he said, “What’s this?! A Feast!”

I had felt bad because I wanted to do so much more to feed him and his team. I felt ashamed we couldn’t do more, but he let us know how they trust God for rice and vegetables each week in India, and sometimes they would have chicken, but he was literally shocked to see our tables!

He took me aside and told me in India, almost all Churches are in homes and what we prepared for him was truly a feast in his country!

When he arrived, he was so unassuming and gracious and we thanked him for coming. I had no idea but he was told by God to meet me! He said a number of things that have stuck with me all throughout my ministry life; so much was said and done in 1993 in San Antonio at the little House Church.

The next day we organized a meeting and he ministered from the scriptures and testified about the miracles that happened in his country India and the miracles that were performed!

He ministered on laying foundations and building The Kingdom of God. Towards the close of the message, he called my then husband and I to the front and he began to pray and prophesy over us, then suddenly he stopped and took his hands completely off my then husband and I and Dr. PG Vargis crisscrossed his arms and them, put his right hand on me and left hand on my then husband, then he released the apostolic anointing.

This Apostle of the Faith, a mighty foundation layer, Dr. PG Vargis of the Indian Evangelical Ministry Team came to our little House Church and called it a feast, imparting apostolic faith and anointing all the way from India to Texas!

Talk about humbling. To bring an Apostle from India to our modest home to speak life and minister the message and anointing. Only God would do such a thing and he sure did!

At the time, I didn’t want to believe my marriage was going down but it had given me plenty of signs through the years from the time I was filled with The Holy Spirit.

There was a lot that happened in that marriage and as The LORD leads, he will have me share. However, in the end, my ex-husband told me he never felt it was his place to be the pastor or minister, and he did it all for me. At that time, I didn’t think I could minister at all unless I had a husband over me.

This was a very hard lesson, because many years back, I prayed for God to show me my husband. If this man was my husband I was determined in persistence to ask!

And he asked me to marry him and when I got home, I asked God again, and it was audible to me, and I heard, “NO!”

However, I went against that NO and married him anyway, and let me make this clear, I am thankful for my step son, my first-born son, and my daughter, and I dedicated all three to God for his purpose.

From the time of their birth till 2000 they were in the Church and I taught them The Eord and my daughter would travel with me sometimes and she was anointed from a young age to sing and play guitar and she had such compassion for people!

My children were not a mistake and they came from a righteous bloodline! God takes everything that Satan meant for evil and turns it all around for good! The LORD watches over his word to perform it and though sown in tears I will reap in great joy!

“Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.” Proverbs 22:6 KJV.

I chose this man and I lived the consequences of this choice! “Like Abraham and Ishmael, Abraham said, Let Ishmael live before you! (*Genesis 17:18-19) I wanted this man to be someone he wasn’t and, in the end, he admitted it.

He finally admitted that he only did it because of me, and his heart wasn’t into it. I had hoped I was wrong all those years, I loved him but it did not work for many reasons.

I tried everything I could to make the marriage work and I really did not want to see my marriage fail, but all the signs were there and there were so many tears and heartache for all involved.

I tried to make my Ishmael live! However, after 3 separations, and great painful heartache, the divorce was final. That was a marriage of twenty-five years. I still at times grieve over the loss and those decisions.

At that time, I went through horrible roller coaster of emotions as a minister and I had to close the Church down in 2000. Everyone I thought would be there left, and I was alone.

It was a very trying time emotionally, spiritually, and physically and it took very long time to mend. But in the end, God was right and it was proven to me.

I had wondered if God would ever allow me to share any of my heartache. I guess now He is having me share bits and pieces of it to help others and those who read this.

Yes, personal things are often just suppressed and internalized, and boiled to the top. But the trials of the enemy, trials in The Church, and trials we orchestrate from choices we make, when we become transparent as led of The LORD, our lives will speak volumes!

We have the potential to help benefit others who are suffering the same peril and we know how to minister to them.

Understand this, I only shared portions as led by the Spirit of The LORD, but we all have a story and none of us are perfect.

All of us fail and make mistakes. We learn and grow by them. Some mistakes we make take a long time to heal. But God knows when we are ready for more!

Let me say this, just because your reputation was tarnished, know that there are those who know you by The Spirit, and they will stand up for you and always will!

People will be people and they talk and they really have no idea why they hate you or talk against you!

Spurred on through jealousy, envy, and especially religious spirits, these people are deluded by the enemy, and Satan thinks he can tarnish you and shut you down forever!

He only has the power we give him, and who cares about reputation anyway? Are we dead to this world?

Dead men don’t react or respond, they are dead! When we step out of being hid in Christ, we resurrect our old nature and give it power!

Have we put to death the deeds of the flesh? As long as you know God is happy with you, who cares what others think?

I would rather have God on my side — leaving my reputation in His hand! Those of us who are hidden in Christ and love The LORD, must concern ourselves with backsliders and souls for The Kingdom!

If you are a God-fearing believer in Jesus Christ, your life is an open book a living epistle seen and read of all men.

Hey — we are supposed to be dead and the life we now live we choose to serve and please HIM! If someone is ragging on you and trying to discredit you, STOP!!

Where are you right now? Tell the devil “I know who I am, and my life is hid in Christ!”

When you know your dead and alive to God, who cares what they say to try and tarnish you! Who cares what they think!

You have God on your side and who can be against you! Who can disqualify you? If God be for us who can be against us?

If someone comes close enough to us, we have a rag in hand and give it to them and let them know you shine up really good!

For those you KNOW well, know your character and nature; especially honesty and integrity. Let them know you have stood up for them and always will.

People will talk and especially so-called Religious spirit Christians, they hate you and don’t know why, they are jealous, and envious of things they could have if they only sought The LORD.

God is no respecter of persons, if he can do it for us he can do it for YOU! You know you love The LORD with ALL your heart, soul, and mind!

Sure, we may not know how we are perceived, but we cannot run and put out every fire of rumor, gossip or slander etc.

Be free indeed, your life is hid in Christ and if you are dead to this world, what reputation can ruin us when we are in Christ with His reputation?

“Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God: But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross. Wherefore God also hath highly exalted him, and given him a name which is above every name: That at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of things in heaven, and things in earth, and things under the earth; And that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.” Philippians 2:5-11 KJV.

We are living in a time when hell is bellowing out everything in its arsenal against the true people of God. Not everyone who says Lord, Lord, is of God.

The proof is in the pudding! Where’s the fruits of The Holy Spirit?

There are many religious spirits in Churches today that are so far removed from The Truth of Scripture! It is scary to me that people do not read and study God’s Word for themselves, asking The Holy Spirit to teach and guide them into all truth!

We must align ourselves to the only standard there is; our standard is God’s Word!

Those who know me well, know I am straight up and I call it as I see it! If it isn’t of God I reject it, because I KNOW The Word of God!

God’s Word is our plumb line, and we measure our Spiritual house against that Standard! The Bible! The Word made flesh and dwelt among us!

We are living in perilous times. The LORD has been showing me the separation that is taking place NOW! And there are so many who are not ready! The hearts are being revealed and the depth of their confession exposed!

During this separation there’s coming a great falling away!

What we are going through is nothing compared to what will happen to those who pretend, deceive, and are filled with strong delusion so that they believe the lie!

Just like it was in the temple in Jesus’ days on earth, he confronted the hypocrites, the proud, and the religious leaders and he called them what they were, and He was straight up!

He didn’t mince words, He clearly exposed the religious leaders! He called them vipers, hypocrites, full of dead man’s bones who killed the prophets!

We are living in times like Jesus did. Keep your eyes fixed on The LORD and realize you are not alone.

During this separation, you will begin to see people stepping out of the shadows coming forth counting the cost of Christ among us.

The true believers will be drawn together more and more because of the tribulation and pressure of this separation! It costs us our lives to believe The Bible as God’s Will for us and our only standard we live and die by.

Don’t expect everyone to receive you or accept you! If you’re rejected by the religious, you’re in good company!

God is going to bring His true People into union and we will know each other by The Spirit, our Love, and Agreement.

Ask God to keep you close to His heart. I am seriously separated unto The LORD and His will in my life!

There is so much spiritual blindness now and it is epidemic proportions! Jesus will not interfere with our free will or free choice, and He can’t lie. So, we choose….

No man knows the day or hour of His return, but we will know the season. The time is short and He is giving many a short period to choose.

We are praying and I mean seriously praying — that The LORD will comfort your heart and mind, and that your eyes are wide open and your heart is totally separate from this world! You will see The Truth and that Truth makes you free!

Draw me deeper away from the lie and help us to listen only to His Holy Spirit. The WORD became flesh and dwelt among us, as it must become flesh in our lives.

Know the scriptures yourselves, without any influence other than the true influence of The Holy Spirit and Scripture. Cast not away your confidence which hath great recompense of reward. (*Hebrews 10:35)

I pray The LORD comforts your hearts and minds and that you walk with your eyes wide open and your heart totally separated from this world and conformed unto the nature and character of Jesus! When you see the truth, it WILL set you free!

“But understand this, that in the last days dangerous times [of great stress and trouble] will come [difficult days that will be hard to bear]. For people will be lovers of self [narcissistic, self-focused], lovers of money [impelled by greed], boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy and profane, [and they will be] unloving [devoid of natural human affection, calloused and inhumane], irreconcilable, malicious gossips, devoid of self-control [intemperate, immoral], brutal, haters of good, traitors, reckless, conceited, lovers of [sensual] pleasure rather than lovers of God, holding to a form of [outward] godliness (religion), although they have denied its power [for their conduct nullifies their claim of faith]. Avoid such people and keep far away from them. For among them are those who worm their way into homes and captivate morally weak and spiritually-dwarfed women weighed down by [the burden of their] sins, easily swayed by various impulses, always learning and listening to anybody who will teach them, but never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. Just as Jannes and Jambres [the court magicians of Egypt] opposed Moses, so these men also oppose the truth, men of depraved mind, unqualified and worthless [as teachers] in regard to the faith. But they will not get very far, for their meaningless nonsense and ignorance will become obvious to everyone, as was that of Jannes and Jambres. Now you have diligently followed [my example, that is] my teaching, conduct, purpose, faith, patience, love, steadfastness, persecutions, and sufferings–such as happened to me at Antioch, at Iconium, and at Lystra; what persecutions I endured, but The LORD rescued me from them all! Indeed, all who delight in pursuing righteousness and are determined to live godly lives in Christ Jesus will be hunted and persecuted [because of their faith]. But evil men and impostors will go on from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. But as for you, continue in the things that you have learned and of which you are convinced [holding tightly to the truths], knowing from whom you learned them, and how from childhood you have known the sacred writings (Hebrew Scriptures) which are able to give you the wisdom that leads to salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus [surrendering your entire self to Him and having absolute confidence in His wisdom, power and goodness]. All Scripture is God-breathed [given by divine inspiration] and is profitable for instruction, for conviction [of sin], for correction [of error and restoration to obedience], for training in righteousness [learning to live in conformity to God’s will, both publicly and privately–behaving honorably with personal integrity and moral courage]; so that the man of God may be complete and proficient, outfitted and thoroughly equipped for every good work.” 2 Timothy 3:1-17 AMP.

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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Racism Mindsets

We are the products of our environments; what’ been handed down in history, society and family, reflects in our world.

Racism Mindsets Part 1

We are the products of our environments; what has been handed down through our generations in history, society and family reflects in our world.

Many families have no idea where their ideology comes from. And in particular, this nation is deeply divided by racism.

However, before we can speak to a nation, we must speak to ourselves and rightly judge our own heart and repent of sin.

However, it doesn’t end there; we must realize that God wants to address the racism that is in the Church.

We must learn from our history and lineage the lessons so that bloodline curses won’t repeat themselves in us, our families, or in the generations that follow.

The generational curses of racism are evident in our nation and fighting these issues that divide us is an ongoing battle and it may seem hopeless!

We live in a fallen world where Satan’s seat is. The enemy has dominion, because of the fall of Adam but God, through the shed blood of his only begotten Son Jesus Christ has given His Church Dominion and all Authority to rule and reign in this life!

If we have repented of sin and received Jesus Christ in our hearts his desire remains the same! He wants us to take dominion in our families, our towns, our regions, states, and beyond!

However, it begins in us!

Do you want lasting change? Begin to search within your own heart. In this world, you shall have trouble and lasting change only goes so far.

“These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world,” John 16:33 KJV.

I understand that racism brings frustration, rage, anger, hopelessness, fear, and other negative effects.

However, nationally The LORD has made it plain that this issue can only go so far in resolving change. What is our answer? What is the solution?

The Church is supposed to be the living representation of Christ in our “world” and nation. But it begins with us.

What comes out of our mouth? What do we represent in our family? What is the foundation of our witness? We testify our beliefs by how we speak and how we live!

“Do we begin again to commend ourselves? Or need we, as some others, epistles of commendation to you, or letters of commendation from you? Ye are our epistle written in our hearts, known and read of all men,” 2 Corinthians 3:1-2 KJV.

The LORD has said that lasting national change must begin within the church. Beloved of God, we are like the salt that seasons; however, when you use a lot of salt it also preserves! God wants to season our lives and our messages to join in with the body of Christ to do a preserving work of grace in a sin-sick world.

When the salt has lost its savor, it is worthless. In contrast, the ‘Dead Sea’ may seem worthless. However, it has the most nutrient-dense level of minerals and the saltiest body of water in the world.

Though it is called ‘dead’, it brings life, health, and healing to those who have various ailments like skin and joints issues, and it improves circulation, reduces inflammation, helps arthritis and joint pain.

It also aids in recovery from surgery. Even those with certain heart conditions find relief and reprieve.

So, in this illustration dead things heal. As we die daily putting to death the deeds of our flesh we truly live! When we die to our way of thinking, die to our desires, and put on Christ’s desires, we do a preserving and healing work uniting the body of Christ by having the mind of Christ.

This happens first in us, our family, and then influence’s our world!

As this must begin in us and we are parts of the body of Christ; we come to the realization that The LORD’s body is made up of all races, creed, tribes, and tongues.

And The LORD is empowering his people to preach the everlasting gospel to those who dwell on the earth. We are to go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature, we go into all the world, person by person.

Before a nation or culture can change it must happen within the blood-bought Church of the Living God. The Church is to be that salt, to bring a preserving work in our lives

Peace can only be achieved through our relationship with The LORD Jesus! Jesus is our Prince of peace and the government is upon his shoulders.

“For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government Shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace. Of the increase of his government and peace there shall be no end, upon the throne of David, and upon his kingdom, to order it, and to establish it with judgment and with justice from henceforth even forever. The zeal of The LORD of hosts will perform this,” Isaiah 9:6-7 KJV.

I felt compelled to share portions of my life or testimony so that you can understand my message better.

I was born on August 29, 1960, at Tachikawa Air Force Base in Tokyo Japan. Both my parents are veterans and served their country honorably.

I am the oldest of three siblings and we moved a lot and I learned how to adapt very quickly. Actually, my parents and all my siblings all served their country including me.

We moved a lot and experienced many things. You may think moving as much as I did would have hindered me in many ways but I found that there are a lot of advantages being raised globally.

I got to meet and mix with various races, cultures and it was a life that had many advantages, and besides, I really enjoyed it. My years in my parent’s care, taught me discipline, integrity, honesty, loyalty, and love for my country.

Some people never leave their home town, but not me, I had to see what was going on in the world and I couldn’t possibly imagine myself stuck in one place forever.

My dad was raised as a Baptist and my mother was raised Lutheran. Through the years in the military mom always kept me in church no matter where we went and I got to cross over into many Christian denominations to see what they were about and their traditions, I even got to experience a few Jewish services.

As we moved and I witnessed varied cultures, I was able to see the diversity in the kingdom of God as a child.

Mom had a relationship with God that made an impact on my life and was pivotal to my salvation experience. My dad and mom retired not too far from where the Cane Ridge Revival took place in Kentucky in 1801.

I received The LORD when I was in the Baptist church. I was seven years old and baptized soon after. While we were in the military we moved so often that I was in thirteen schools in eleven years.

There were things I learned as a child that forever changed me. For instance, when we moved I met wonderful people, however as a child when I was the new kid on the block I wasn’t readily accepted by the clubs and cliques children have.

But the children who always accepted me were the black kids, and all my friends were black and that continued into my adult years. The black kids were kind to me and always accepted me.

To this day I have a deep love for the black community and even my ordination and licensing was through a wonderful half black half Jewish Woman of God whom I love dearly.

Throughout all the years of experiencing diverse cultures, I had gained the ability to cross-denominational and cultural lines.

Truly, as God has led me all these years, I can truly worship God in any Christian ministry that loves The LORD. That advantage has awarded me over and over again having relationships with black women as we traveled and ministered in the 1980s, into the 1990s, and beyond.

The LORD currently has me in one location for a number of years and has had me writing since 1998.

Racism is NOT something I did or had; it was never in my DNA.

I loved all of God’s people and especially the black community and I always felt like I was home. God has raised me up this way and often I find it frustrating as I identify so often with the black or African American Culture and what they went through and what they go through; I take it personally.

More to come………….

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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The Awakening on Social Media

The Fear of The LORD is the beginning of Wisdom, and in these last days, the coming harvest will emerge.

The Fear of The LORD is the beginning of Wisdom, and in these last days, the coming Harvest will emerge and we will have much to do as we will live, speak, and walk out God’s Wisdom!

We are to be living epistles or letters seen and read of all men. Much is happening and it all has to do with awakening! Awakening, Revival, and the Harvest are coming!

There will be so many souls that will need spiritual help, and we need to be ready, for no amount of organized Church buildings will be able to house the souls that respond during this major end-time event.

The use of the internet, or ‘social media’ will help immensely, educating many, and will provide many ministry services even to those in out of reach places; all they need is a signal from a satellite.

Who would have ever thought that you could watch television on a little screen held in your hand or displayed on your wrist, just thirty years ago?

I remember the day The LORD told me to create a web page and that I would write His Prophetic Words when I didn’t even know how to get on a computer or surf the web!

You may wonder why God would ask me to do something I had never done. Not only did The LORD speak to me to create a web page, but he also gave me a time frame in which it would be done.

He told me May 31, 1998 — Feast of Pentecost — to begin, and that the web page would be done by the end of June!

This was quite a feat since I had no idea how to work a computer.

I had no idea what to do, so I prayed and sat down and asked my son to show me how to get on-line and to surf the web.

I took off exploring, learning all I could and I was amazed how much information and prophetic words and teachings were out there.

I don’t know how I did what I did, but I always ended up landing on various prophetic pages and would read for hours. As I read prophecy, I felt like I was reading coded orders of what he was telling me to do!

During a Church Service on a Friday night, I had visions of an ink well, a writer’s quill, then a fountain pen and notebook, then I saw a computer keyboard.

The LORD asked me, “Daughter, what do these things have in common?” I said, “Writing LORD!” Then He said, “You’re right, and you shall write all I give to you.”

The different symbols in the vision all signified means of writing and the advances in communications.

There were several that had Godly visions and dreams during this pivotal time frame. One said she had a dream and stated that she saw a room filled with people and a lot of clamor. She heard lots of voices speaking negatively against what God was saying to me.

But she related that none of the distractions were hindering what I had to do. She said that I was confident as I opened the door God told me to go through.

As I walked through the door, it appeared to be outside. It was a beautiful spring day and on the ground was a huge white sheet that went as far as the eye could see.

The edges of the page were emerald green and the sheet was pure white. A woman I know related that two people I know walked out on the white sheet, then she said I prophesied, “Your mouth, your hands, and feet.”

Then immediately these two people fell down on the white page and the power of God was all over them. Then she said I walked out on the white sheet and I too fell on the white page under the power of God.

That was the end of her dream. The LORD gave me the interpretation the next morning.

The pure white sheets represent a web page, the pure white, symbolic of the purity of the words and the means by which they are written.

The emerald green border symbolic of a new beginning. The size of the page as far as the eye can see, represents the ramifications of influence and international scope, for there seemed to be no end, like looking at the horizon.

The prophecy, “Your mouth, your hands, and feet,” means that the spoken, written, walked out word of God shall multiply beyond our traditional methods. We will literally walk out the living Word of God, for we stand on His Word!

Social media and all of cyberspace belong to The Kingdom of God and we are to possess it by force.

Possessing the land — includes the internet.

The ramification of influence is in every nation, tribe, and tongue, also in isolated lands and areas! We shall go into all the world, “including cyberspace,” with the gospel of Jesus Christ!

I almost forgot! The web page was up and running by June 24, 1998, to the Glory of God the Father!

More to Come……………

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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The Religious Legalist

I have prayed and questioned God today as pertaining to my former religious life that is buried and in the grave.

I have prayed and questioned God today as pertaining to my former religious life that is buried and in the grave.

It is buried true, but there on that tomb is a testimony that The LORD wants me to share.  He wills that I share portions of my former life in hopes to help others who may be in similar places.

God did tell me a long time ago, that He would take everything in my life and turn it around for good and He would use my testimony to help others.

As you read the absolute naked portions of my former life, please don’t judge me, but pray for me and others who read this, who are or were like I was.

Pray that The LORD gives you compassion to wounded souls like I was.

Important!  Balance!  

This isn’t a message for people who only want to get by or pretend.  This message is for people who want to be everything God wants, but they go to the extreme and burn-out in their abilities, becoming religious.

This message isn’t about people who only want fire insurance from hell, or those who only want to do the bare minimum to get by.

I wondered how many of us have ever felt like we’re running in circles chasing our own tail?

How many of us spend enormous amounts of time, effort, and energy doing something for God, but we end up achieving nothing?

How many of us think we are entitled to so much more, but we end up wondering why we cannot get beyond whatever this is?

This process perplexed me and made me feel so vulnerable and weak and I didn’t understand why it kept happening.

This topic troubled me for a number of years, because I had wrong thinking and a wrong belief system.

It wasn’t until the many years of circling around that same mountain, defeated, that I got serious with God as to why this kept happening to me!

I wanted to know what I was doing wrong, and I really did want to know what I was believing, even if it cost me positions and relationships.

I was so upset and desperate that it was at this point when He began showing me the error of my belief system.

Being a go-getter for God and extremely disciplined, I went hard after God to the max for years, even when I ran off on my own accord for God!

However, I couldn’t understand why I ended up in the same place each year!  I kept burning out and it affected me spiritually, emotionally, and physically.

I would hear people say, “I would rather burn-out for God than to just exist in obscurity.”  Which was totally pride.  And in loving people, we want to be totally admired and envied; we want people to love us and think we are great.

Being amongst the legalist extreme in religion, was more regarded than those who pretend and seem to just get by in their faith; even while we’re saying, we are having so much fun!

God never intended that we be fulfilled in life without Him, but He gave us a free will and free choice.

In legalism, we want to affect the world around us, when in actuality we are really driving those we love mad!   I heard these things, “Why don’t you just enjoy your life?”

When I really thought about that, I was perplexed as I didn’t know how to enjoy my life as a legalist, because I had a reputation to keep up and I gave up my life to be this person!

And there were so many laws and demands to remain usable in that twisted world of religion.

I wanted to be a gospel peace maker among the numbers of brethren and especially among denominations.  I preached unity and for people to get along with their differences.

I had a type A personality and based everything and the way I lived on how perfectly I could remain.

I thought at the time that I understood that Christ saved me and delivered me, but inside I saw myself as not good enough, so I had to keep up the standard of all those around me and do all the things required of me.

Even though I loved God, I didn’t really understand the basis of my salvation, and thought I had to keep up, then when I would burn-out, I would see God as a task master and unattainable unless I remain strong in my own power, because he only wanted the best and strongest, like Darwin’s theory of the survival of the fittest.

And to add to the mix, I expected others to seek God with the same fervor I had and I had a very judgmental spirit.

I was able to pull order out of disorder in all sorts of situations in religion.  I was in control and I was needed — at least at the time.  I did what needed to be done, but I was in a race with myself and I was miserable and I could feel each time like I was coming apart.

What is a type A personality?
Definition and meaning:  “Type A personality:  A temperament characterized by excessive ambition, aggression, competitiveness, drive, impatience, need for control, focus on quantity over quality and unrealistic sense of urgency.  It is commonly associated with risk of coronary disease and other stress-related ailments.”    © businessdictionary.com

When I would burn-out physically, I was so full of anxiety and fear because I felt I wasn’t strong enough to prevail.  I felt so weak and out of it that I would not make it to Heaven, because I was not strong enough and didn’t have what it would take.

So many issues stemmed from that including a strong spirit of pride, arrogance, and judgmentalism I had.  Any time I was weak, I condemned myself and beat myself down with self-hatred and self-loathing.

It would take me weeks to recover and I would hear things like grace and mercy and for a time I would believe it, that God accepted me as I was…… but once I was strong again, I would blow it off and go back to my flawed belief system.

Although I believed in the grace and mercy of God, I thought it was predicated on my behavior modification and lifestyle.  I would begin to get a glimpse of the nature and character of God in those down times, but once I was strong again, I embraced my former belief system based on fear.

I have never seen anyone who was strong-armed to the altar through fear or torment, who has remained.

Fear doesn’t save people, love does.  Love keeps us for we are kept by the power of God!

It is through God’s lovingkindness that He leads us to repentance.  God hasn’t given us a spirit of fear, but of power love, and a sound mind and perfect love cast out all fear for fear has torment.

I came to a place of sudden loss of three major happenings in my life all in the same time frame.  I found myself suddenly, when whatever it was within me that gave me strength was depleted and gone!

Suddenly I broke down!  Something within me broke and whatever it was that kept me strong, was suddenly gone and no matter how much I fasted and prayed, I could not get over this.

Something within me broke and I found I had no control over my life anymore.  I had never felt so vulnerable.  I asked for prayer from the Church and people fasted and prayed for me — all to no avail.

I felt I was blinded and did not know my way, led only about by people who then started hating on me, because I wasn’t the strong Sherry they knew.

Then I learned the Church I served in blasted me from the pulpit and told the others to stay away from me, because I was a false prophet!  I was one of their ministers and had been under their authority for three years, totally involved in all portions of that ministry!

The Church and every friend I thought I had, judged me and abandoned me.  I was left alone with no hope.

It felt like they took a sharp knife and stabbed me in the heart and twisted it.  Something broke and was never the same again.

Like having a broken arm without getting it set in alignment, and it has never been the same and that person who was so strong, was no longer was there.

Part of me died never recovered.  I was beyond exhaustion; total exhaustion and I cried all the time —  but little did I know I was on my way to freedom!

In my pursuit of God after these experiences, I learned I had a fear of God that wasn’t according to knowledge, and it caused me to see everything through legalism and religion.

You see, their belief was I needed to be strong and keep on going, or I would not make it into heaven.

Everything was based on performance not the grace and mercy of God and His finished work.  I saw God as an angry God towards humanity, and especially towards me!

After this experience, I could not pray and I felt like I had gone beyond the grace and mercy of God.  I was existing, hurt, wounded, and heading for certain death — I thought.

But oh, The Blood of Jesus!  Oh, the grace and mercy of God!  God was answering my prayers that I wondered about as why I was continually going around in circles.

As you continue to freedom in Christ, don’t let man limit you, because they can’t keep you under their control.

It happens more than you know.  I have had people abandon me just because I wasn’t allowed by God to conform to their agenda.

When you are released, you will be shocked at how much you were under control and the weight will fly off of you!  You will feel it release!

I want you to know straight up, that my desire is to never offend, but I would much rather offend man than God.

People will try to strong-arm us to intimidate, force, control, and to keep us bound to their experience when God has so much more for you.  You don’t need to apologize for being obedient to God!

God sets you free and who knows what He has planned for you! 

You will be free, and may even have a major change into a different career field of ministry!  It’s not over, you have just begun!

It isn’t a demotion, but a promotion into what is needed for each of us to function within The Body of Christ.  What you have attained thus far in God isn’t taken away, for the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.

“For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance,”   Romans 11:29 KJV.

This topic isn’t about people who just want to get by, or about people who pretend to be believers but who bear no fruit of the Spirit.

This topic is for the people who love God, but have been captives of legalism and religion, like me.

I was extreme with God and had never understood God’s grace or mercy, or Christ and His finished work on the cross.

“For he shall have judgment without mercy, that hath shewed no mercy; and mercy rejoiceth against judgment,”   James 2:13 KJV.

If you don’t know who you are, then people will tell you who you are and you will be whom they want you to be, instead of whom God wants you to be.

We must remember, those who compare themselves among themselves are not wise.  So look into the mirror of God’s Word and be whom He wants you to be.

Religion is a return to bondage, for your righteousness is self-motivated by your behaviors.

Religion focuses on the flesh of man.  Christianity focuses on the flesh of the finished work of Christ.

Legalism causes our heart to be hard.  A legalist wants everyone to do it their way, or you are not good enough or they label you as not being a Christian.

It makes the religious group mad when you are not doing what they want, and follow all their rules, especially if God is still blessing you!

A legalist is very intolerant of anyone who doesn’t measure up to his or her standards.

More next time……..

 

In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


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