For a couple weeks now, I have felt grieved in my body and I could hear crying inside of me and I kept asking the LORD what it was and what was wrong.
Today He helped me understand a lot more.
I had a vision,
I saw the LORD’s Hand squeezing an enlarged heart like a sponge, but instead of it dripping blood, it was being transformed and dripping the Oil of Gladness and of Great Compassion.
Then I saw the heart being squeezed and what appeared, was the washing of the Water of the Word.
I also saw the person, as this squeezing took place. Each time the heart was squeezed, the person would breath in deeply and then would shed tears….
This was an intense process, and one that had to be done to finalize.
“Thou hast loved righteousness, and hated iniquity; therefore God, even thy God, hath anointed thee with the oil of gladness above thy fellows,” Hebrews 1:9 KJV.
“and let them make haste, and take up a wailing for us, that our eyes may run down with tears, and our eyelids gush out with waters,” Jeremiah 9:18 KJV.
I also see a vision like of the boat that Washington used crossing the Delaware River, but instead of a red, white and blue flag, there was a deeper meaning.
I saw a superimposed realm in which I could see that there were two flags.
But in this vision, the LORD allowed me to focus and see the brilliant white flag in the head of the boat.
The flag was without spot wrinkle or any blemish as Washington faced a new land and territory.
I knew in the vision that the white flag meant moving forward with absolute surrender to the will of God.
Washington prayed and surrendered to the LORD’s will in crossing over that river and the trek that God led him to do.
The Word of the LORD:
“I AM yearning for you My Beloved, yearning to clothe you as I have squeezed your heart of great compassion and in the shedding of My Blood I conquered death, hell and the grave for eternal life.
You haven’t understood some things, and you haven’t learned from books or theories, but from dwelling in Me richly and boldly.
Yes, you have felt lonely in this temporal life, but I have caused you to learn of Me through the identity of My son in the fellowship of the sufferings beloved.
These tests of the hidden places of the heart are the places where I dwell in you richly.
Yes, you have identified with me but have only tasted only a very small portion of the anguish of My Heart. I grieve and anguish over the whole world!
I squeezed your heart and you have identified and learned with great surrender and compassion, how I feel about the whole world.
Even in advancing you and crossing over into the new places of my purpose and mission; I have kept you and will continue beloved.
My banner over you is love and I have kept you and purposed you in total surrender to My Purpose.
My advancing warrior children are found keeping pace in the secret place of the heart of their surrender.
Learning in seeking My Face in childlike grace creates an impenetrable heart that is given only by Me.
A stout measure of fortification and walls of defense are in this place for those in the secret place and you shall know the heart of the matter as you abide there.
In the hearts of innocence and trust, I have proven you in your passion. I have kept you as your love is pure and simple.
Remaining lowly of heart and remaining childlike will be an impenetrable fortress against the winds and the storms that come to test your resolve.
I have sought after a heart that is true and dear, having a childlike pace that seek My Face.
Being as a child isn’t such a grand place of men’s dreams and desire for accolades, but the retreat to what is simple.
It is there that I AM at ease with those leaning against My breast. Severed away of things that have come your way, knowing too what is more is less, is more of your heart true.
It is learning to dwell in Me you will depend on me more.
I know that sometimes it can be so utterly alone and dark but, in this obscurity, I AM bringing victory. I AM bringing you victory and grace in all you do beloved true,” says the LORD.
I believe tears are the response of Jesus through us.
He weeps within and through our tears, so when we feel so alone and feel and hear the weeping within, remember that you have become one with Christ and He abides within you in the fellowship of his sufferings.
The hurt and pain of rejection He feels is magnified much more in the world view.
Imagine the hurt and the pain He has for those who would crucify Him afresh. When people hurt us, they don’t realize they are hurting Him too. So, don’t be afraid of weeping and tears, for they are sharing his life through you.
I keep hearing Him say to REST and for those like us. We struggle with this concept, because we feel we must do something.
Entering His rest is a position, leaning back without thought or care, he leads us there so we will be healed of such trifle thoughts of everyday life and those things he must sever so that we will be grow in a greater degree in all humility.
You are right, not many should strive for high places in man’s accolades.
I pray that God will not give me more or allow anything that would turn my face away from His. Even if you want to remain hidden for your whole life, what you experience in secret he awards for eternal life.
Being childlike is a goal of innocence. Don’t hold on to people too tightly anymore.
The great network in so many ways is uncharted territory in reaching the great harvest of souls. Because of the price don’t seek selfish ambitions, it is not worth it.
Ministry is a goal, not a destination. So those He sends our way, obey Him, but not man’s ways.
I have heard it so many times before, that many years ago the desire for ministry was strong, but now it is gone.
We must remember that it is all about Him, when He lifts us up to Him instead.
He will give you the grace, but remember the price, it will cost your very life.
Remember Moses thought his best days were behind him. Keep your focus on God instead of man, so that no idolatry, nor shame as we keep in synchronization with the Master’s plan.
“For I reckon that the sufferings of this present times are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us,” Romans 8:18 KJV.
“But rejoice, in as much as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy,” 1 Peter 4:13 KJV.
In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey
New Beginning Christian Ministries International 