The Struggle Within

When promotion comes, you can see and feel the elevation, however our stance in Christ is to remain as a humble man or woman of God.


When promotion comes, you can see and feel the elevation, however our stance in Christ is to remain as a humble man or woman of God.

Being a humble servant means we serve the body of Christ.  It does not mean we are wusses and yield to everything and anything that comes down the pike.

There are those who are now appearing on the scene.  Jesus is announcing them to those who need to know.  These are those that have been prepared and seasoned through long periods of trial; some seasoned for decades, to the deadening of their physical and spiritual womb.

Yet in His goodness, he also delights in taking what was once ugly and making a beautiful vision of hope in time.

Look at the monarch butterfly!  It changed completely from a caterpillar to a glorious vision of living beauty!  Yet in season like the butterfly, we must go through types of death to truly live.

As the caterpillar looked in the mirror, it sure didn’t look like a monarch at all. Only by vision could one hold that promise given so long ago. To be kings and priest looked so far away from this life, yet it is through the struggle that the butterfly is finally immersed to the sun and released to fly.

I think it’s a disservice to God’s people when we don’t speak of the struggle.  Keeping this message from the body is to lie and deceive God’s people.  That lie is straight from the pit of hell!

Things of struggle are not spoken of very often as it makes us seem vulnerable.  Yet behind the scenes are what shows us what lessons we have learned.  There is a high cost to carry weighty messages.

One must be prepared by and through much training and testing through the Holy Spirit.

Death is not a popular topic but we all have to face it.  It is through that transition and death to our flesh that we truly live in Christ.

“For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain,”   Philippians 1:21 KJV.

God is on the move and he’ll do it for you!  He is NOT done with you beloved! In season you shall come through as his beautiful creation.

He delights bringing light into the darkness and opening dead wombs all proving to us we are loved by the God of heaven!  Oh how he is altogether lovely!  Oh how I love Him!

“His mouth is most sweet: yea, he is altogether lovely.  This is my beloved, and this is my friend, O daughters of Jerusalem,”   Song of Solomon 5:16 KJV.

When God elevates it brings great change.  He shines his light from heaven on those whose set time has come.  When God promotes, it is all about HIM bringing his purpose into the earth.

He uses our broken flawed lives to make them filled with His light that radiates from every cracked part.  Just as scars are reminders of past pain and hurt, so are the reminders of the stars of heaven.

He created and spread the stars out in divine order to remind us that He is still there and He is still in control completely faithful through our whole life.

The five-fold ministry according to Ephesians 4 help equip and bring maturity to the body of Christ.  These offices are often misunderstood.

People may think and wonder what did they do to deserve such titles or honor.  Others mock them saying they are proud, haughty or arrogant.  While there are those who genuinely get off track in pride, this is not where I am coming from at all!

The truth is, those legitimate office’s have learned the hard way and know who they are and whom they belong to.

To go against the stream, swimming upstream is the last great feat of the salmon’s life.  They live in the ocean and know instinctively when to return to spawn.  These use every bit of strength to go against the flow.

These knowingly going back to the place where it all began; these came to reproduce after their own kind. It is not an easy life.  Just read the life of Paul, then you can see what apostles really do.

For those who hold such offices, going upstream against the normal flow is to ultimately multiply themselves in service to the LORD.  Just like the salmon do when they spawn, God’s creation speaks out loud again to our finite minds; would we choose?

To give something we can’t keep, to buy what we can never lose?

By seeing the treasure in a soul makes it all worthwhile!  Oh to surrender to the call! Would you surrender to death to self?

We each have that choice daily to allow God to be in our thoughts as we pray continually to teach others through our life or death if need be.  Death works in us but life in you.

These office’s are no nonsense, they are confident, bold with great courage and assurance.  What you see in public is a very small part of their lives.  These have gone through intense training because to minister to God’s children can often be a life or death position.

It is not I who lives but Christ who lives in me, (Galatians 2:20).  To the extent of our death to self, will be the extent of the Holy Spirit within us.  We should desire to be continually filled with the Holy Spirit.

If we want the LORD to sit on the throne of our hearts it will cost something.  It will cost you everything but it is so worth it in knowing Him in his power and resurrection!

God knows us completely from our beginning to our end. He even knows your thoughts before you think them.

I want God to know me that way.  There are some people who know you well enough to know your character, flaws and all.  That is important for a HUB.  What else is important?

Do we know ourselves?  I have learned that I am capable of falling and failure when put into the right circumstances.  I am capable of being a murderer or prostitute when put into the right situations.

If it were not for the grace of God where would I be…. that is where our humility begins.  We know ourselves to a degree but we are clearly seen by God and he is at work for his great pleasure.

Yes we should have our inner circle of confidants and as we grow our circle gets smaller, but God gets so much larger in us.  It is a good thing to have our small HUB of leaders that we can be open and honest to without fear of their judgment.

When you find a true confidant you know them and can trust them with our flaws, faults and failures.  Being loyal and trustworthy is acquired, it is proven in the fire.  We can trust God as he brings people together for protection, accountability and responsibility.

To keep us from a tailspin or shipwreck we must learn who we are in HIM.  To live is Christ!  Do we truly know ourselves?  Do we know who we are in Christ?  It is through the struggle that the butterfly is finally released to fly.

Yet we hate the struggle, we wish it would go away but no matter where you go he is there.  Having a baby is the same for we get to a place where we don’t want to do this no more!

AND because of transition we are so close to having that baby that is when your hay-wired brain isn’t thinking good thoughts!

Beloved, we are transitioning and breathe deep and press into the pain!  Press forward don’t let up, you are almost there!  PUSH! You are there breathe and PUSH!

Everything you have carried for that long period is manifesting and soon you will see the results of your transition.  A child is born, a ministry, a friendship, a deliverance etc.

Whatever the LORD has spoken, He will bring you to the birth and will see you through.  Be encouraged beloved of God and understand His thoughts for you are yes and amen!  In Jesus name!


In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey

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Sherry Edwards Mackey Founder of New Beginning Christian Ministries International since February 1990. Authors “Catch Of the Day” a prophetic word in season revealing the heart and mind of God. The gospel must be preached and “published” throughout the whole world before the coming of the Lord. We believe we will witness the greatest out pouring of revival the world has ever seen, empowering many with Holy Ghost Fire causing the great end time harvest to be gathered in.

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