The Test of Silence

Those who know they have been called by God to leadership will go through death experiences on many levels

Learning to be silent in the midst of great opposition is an acquired trait.  Many times we are not confident in silence.  We get antsy and nervous when we should be silent and and still waiting on God to show us and to wait on his lead.

What’s our heart motive’s?  Are we “having” to do something or “wanting” to do something.  He has plainly given us free will to choose.  To choose Him or not.  He is not some legalistic God that is standing over you demanding that you love him.  It is HIS loving kindness that leads us to repentance.

We are made in Gods image.  He created us for His pleasure; He created us for fellowship with HIM.  Think about that. He wants to have a love walk with us! Isn’t that amazing!

He has many created beings to fellowship with, but He wants to fellowship with someone that chooses to love Him.  He longs for a relationship with us, but He won’t make us do it.

He will not make us love Him.  The creator of the universe desires our attention.  Oh, He wants us to love Him the way He loves us!  Oh! To be so in love with Him that we take time, not make time for Him.  This whole Christian walk is about knowing our Loving God.

Are we doing things out of obligation, instead of our love walk with HIM?  I want to be motivated by My first Love.  Who is HIM!!  I am not the Holy Spirit, nor can I make things happen. Either God does it or it won’t be done.

If God decrees that we will ultimately hold greater leadership positions, He will take us often to the back side of a desert scenario; to prepare us in humility.  All Christians go through learning to love and grow in grace, I am not talking on this level.

Those who know they have been called by God to leadership will go through death experiences on many levels.  What God requires for one doesn’t necessarily mean He requires it for all.  This depends on what type of death to self we go through.  Whatever level of leadership or office, God always requires death to self in many areas; especially to develop humility.

Not everyone can hold offices of leadership because they involve great humiliations.  For those that shall be great among you shall be servants.

“But to sit on my right hand and on my left hand is not mine to give; but it shall be given to them for whom it is prepared.  And when the ten heard it, they began to be much displeased with James and John.  But Jesus called them to him, and saith unto them, Ye know that they which are accounted to rule over the Gentiles exercise LORDship over them; and their great ones exercise authority upon them.  But so shall it not be among you: but whosoever will be great among you, shall be your minister: And whosoever of you will be the chiefest, shall be servant of all,”   Mark 10:40-44 KJV.

In my experience and study, it seems by the time we are humble, and resolved that our best days were behind us, then God comes in and says you’re ready!  What a paradox!  I like to say it like this.  It’s like the old gray mare she ain’t what she used to be!  So you are resolved, to go out to the pasture of failure, the rest of your life.

It is in such cases, when silence and humility are primed, then the LORD tells us to go back!  You are ready!  He brings us back full circle to confront what we thought we were supposed to do at the beginning.

However He knew the process from the pit to the palace.  We must grow into the place that God leads us to.  You see, God matures us to handle his authority, especially governing authority on all levels.  Godly authority is opposite to worldly authority.

Look at Moses.  He thought he was ready to lead Gods people.  A prince of Egypt with power.  Moses took notice that he was a Hebrew and thought he was their Savior.

Moses had to be refined and defined on the back side of the desert.  Moses had resolved that his former life was gone and the thoughts of His Hebrew brethren were just a memory gone by.

Help us LORD to never forget where we came from.

Those who will be great influences in life, will die many deaths before they are ready for leadership in the LORD.  By the time they get there, they usually don’t want to do it anymore, because they finally see the cost involved.

Another important thing to take notice of; the greater the authority in leadership, causes the circle of confidants to get smaller.  Not all can walk where you walk, and do what you do.

Leaders minister out of over flow.

The ten virgins speak of overflow.  The five who were ready had enough oil in their lamps and had more to take with them.  God wants us to learn to minister out of over flow.

We must spend time with the LORD in worship, prayer and the word of God.  Being filled with the Spirit is not a one time deal.  We need to be continually filled with the Holy Spirit.  Leadership requires continued fellowship with the LORD so we are filled to overflow with HIM.

We each have within us the ability to come to the Holy of Holies each and everyday.  No longer do we rely on priest, prophet or anyone else.  Part of the atoning work of the Lamb Christ Jesus is that He paid our price in full! Now we all, can come boldly into His throne room of grace to receive mercy and find help in time of need.

“Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.  For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.  Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need,”   Hebrews 4:14-16 KJV.

We must learn to protect the gift of the King.  Being stewards of great gifts requires faithfulness.  We cannot allow anyone to keep us from defending those Kingly treasures!  Guarding and stewarding the gift is your responsibility.

Only God can tell us who we are and what we have.  There will be those who try to latch on to the person to get to the treasure.  Guard your heart for out of it come the issues of life.

The Word says, that a double minded man is unstable in ALL his ways.  When Moses was young he was very unstable in the ways of God.

When Moses tried to make his ministry happen, he made a blunder!  Yes it seemed like Moses would think he was their savior.  He was bold, proud, arrogant and killed a man.

Moses thought he was ready, and looking at the situation, it could look that way, however, Moses was full of himself.  God judges the heart.  Moses ran and remained hidden forty years.

And there arose not a prophet since in Israel like unto Moses, whom the LORD knew face to face, in all the signs and the wonders, which the LORD sent him to do in the land of Egypt to Pharaoh, and to all his servants, and to all his land, and in all that mighty hand, and in all the great terror which Moses shewed in the sight of all Israel,”   Deuteronomy 34:10-12 JKV.

Moses became a man whom God knew face to face.  Isn’t this our desire?  We know God face to face as we worship Him, seek Him and know His Word.  Being filled with the fullness of the Holy Spirit should be our goal. He so desires us to be filled more and more.

There are many different field’s and fold’s of ministries.  We are to be careful not to go into another mans field of ministry, unless invited.  We want to be effective, not infected.  We must never minister out of our wounds.  God is greater than our own heart and knows all things.

We want to leave behind us a Spiritual Legacy with God and his people. This is the path. Seeking Him until we find Him! To fall deeper in love with Jesus as we develop our relationship with Him.

God will make room for His gifts.  Just realize, this is a test of silence for you!  He wants you to be confident in silence.  Seeking titles and speaking titles, always speak of immaturity.  Let God be God and let Him make room for your gifts.  Only He can prepare you for what’s ahead.

You don’t seek out ministers, you don’t promote yourself.  God does that.  Promotion comes from the LORD and everyone will know it.

Spirits of the prophets are subject to the prophets.  Do we have a low battery Spiritually?  We need to hook into Gods Spirit and be charged up and filled as we seek HIM with our whole hearts.  Amen?


In HIS Grace and Mercy,
~ Sherry Edwards Mackey


Sherry Edwards Mackey Founder of New Beginning Christian Ministries International since February 1990. Authors “Catch Of the Day” a prophetic word in season revealing the heart and mind of God. The gospel must be preached and “published” throughout the whole world before the coming of the Lord. We believe we will witness the greatest out pouring of revival the world has ever seen, empowering many with Holy Ghost Fire causing the great end time harvest to be gathered in.

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